Closed Chapter Lyrics

The thing about writing a book is

You just never know where to begin

Doing everything for the success

All just ends up being a regret

Trynna figure out what my truth is

Questioning myself should I do this

Putting everything in the music

Overthinking makes me wanna lose it

I look the mirror, then I start to tear up

Judging my appearance, never had a parent

They say try to cheer up, I don't wanna hear it

Ain't nobody caring, they never seen the terrors

Blood on the floors, cops at the door

Parents weren't married, but they were divorced

Yell and scream a lot, fighting like a war

Mom sorta stayed, dad was out the door

The sad part is that it's happening now

Me and my BM going shout for shout

I think about the past like damn what now

Looking at my daughter like damn you proud

She ain't even part of it, she'll remember all of it

And the crazy part of it, I'm the one who started it

Trynna break the chain, but I'm held by restraints

I give it all I got but nothing ever changed

I lost a few people who were close to me

A very good friend that's supposed to be

By my side till we die but unfortunately

You left quick makes me sick and it tortures me

You were like my damn brother, and I lost my grandmother

And you even knew each other, when I heard the news of him

Man I just fell to the floor

Pain that I'm feeling is like I lost the war

Yea, what am I supposed to do

Everyone is dying, and I'm crying, it's a sign

Your losing everyone that was close to you

I thought I paid the price but I'm overdue

I keep getting thrown to pit of fire

Got a bunch of burns but I'm feeling fine

What I tell everyone but it is a lie

How I look on the out is not same inside

Growing up all I ever wanted was a friend

One that would stick it out with me to the end

But that didn't happen I was lonely as a kid

With no one around it's like they don't give a shit

The people who I trust did me dirty

Thinking it would change would just hurt me

Prolly won't be happy till I'm thirty but

Not the destination it's the journey

Yea, losing my Abuela man that shit got me fed up

It brings me to the ground and I don't wanna get up

Voices in my head that just can't shut the hell up

She watched over me, cause she wanted better

She loved me like her own, she wanted me to grow

Times when she called should've picked up the phone

It's too late for that no one's fault but my own

One chapter down there's many more to go

Let's talk about how no girl ever wants you

Maybe cause you're short and I know that it haunts you

A couple inches more would've changed all of it

Let's just ask God why didn't I think of this

But wait there's more, not only are you short

Got so many zits that you start to look deformed

Maybe an exaggeration but you get the point

No girl ever wants to see that in the morn'

Every girl that you spoke with thinks your creep

Maybe cause you get attached the moment that you meet

And start sounding like a weirdo from the moment that you speak

You'll never get a 10 when you acting like a geek

You try to spoil them and act like a gentlemen

They'll look at you as weak and try to find a better man

Cause realistically these women want thugs

Get treated like shit, and get told there a slut

When a good man comes you just laugh and you shrug

Then post you need a good guy, with boys that your done

I sit there so confused man I swear that shit is dumb

How you want what's real but get the fakest love

I'm not in the right but I'm not in the wrong

I'm not the only guy who's relating to this song

Shit, some girls are prolly feeling what I'm saying

So what the hell is wrong with people driving me insane

I could sit all day just drowning in my pity

Blaming everyone and blame it on my city

Talk about the people how dirty that did me

None of it will change, but I'm hoping that you get me

It's hard to find words when it comes to this topic

Hide all my pain in a box and I lock it

But the people need me, so I'm making you a promise

I'll be the hero for you when I drop Forsaken Prophet