i should be here ft. MadDave Lyrics

Feels like I'm a thousand miles away from you

Yet I'm so close to you

I'd like to think I'm someone special to you

But there's a chance that I could damage you

So ashamed about how I feel around you

Feel so much pain when I'm around you

My chest gets so strained when I'm around you

There's so many things I could say about you

Complicated history, you and me

There's nothing more to be, you see

It's just my greed, I pretend to need

I think you would agree

I would kill someone, to feel free, to have won

To conquer my construction, would that be fun?

I'm sorry that I love you

I feel so sorry

From where I gotta be

From where I should be

From where I gotta be

From where I need to be

It's funny that this feeling shit is here to torture you

Nonetheless it's a puzzle piece I can't seem to rest

Growing up is not a race never left a trace except the violence that I face

For being who I am

Because of that I pack my mace

She struggles with her third person communication

Social cues are out of sight to her

Transition comes with patience

In this case it's the want to look like pretty girls

Dysphoria makes me think femininity's a competition

The jealousy kills me

It causes me to lose any relationship I have

She doesn't deserve love as the worst in disguise

She's very against herself and you should be too

Please hate me, please, please hate me more

Shit I forgot to be positive for that I'll have to store

That into her head to get a thousands miles closer to where I gotta be

Where I want to be

From where I gotta be

From where I should be

From where I gotta be

From where I need to be

From where I should be

From where I need to be

Semicolon