The Sun 1.0 Lyrics

I have been lost

Tossing and turning

I can never sleep at night

Walking funny

Sleep deprivation

Really got me acting up all the time

Cause I need a break

But nothings fucking coming

I'm trapped in these walls and I wanna scream

With a wall of mirrors

And a room of smoke

I'm left to huddle on the line between

All my mental illness

And my lame excuses

Either way the blame falls on me

So I take a dagger

To the spinal cord

Cause betrayal is something akin to me

Which means I'm blood related

But you get the reference

I make a bar and my head gets inflated

But then I lose the drive

And put the headphones down

And my passions for the arts deescalating

I know I love this

This creative fashion

Creating and making things for the masses

But recently life has been really blasting

And I'm hit from the chest to my neck and back end

I think when I started, did I really have it back then?

I was so hungry, yeah I was so ready

To live in my car, in the streets, or the snow

To let everybody that's close to me know

That I'm on top

Top, top, top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground

I was on top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground

So tell me how to go back in the sun

When the light leaves blisters on you

Tell me how do I think that I've won

When nobodies betting on you

I let myself down so much that I might as well wear three boots

Two for my feet that I can't bear to stand on

And one for my neck that is keeping me glued

Glued to the floor alone

To the floor alone

Where I know that I belong

I belong

I belong

I belong

I belong

Yeah

I'm on top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground

I was on top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground

I've put so much pressure on my passion

That it's killing everything I loved about it

If I take a break then I feel I'm lacking

Then I beat myself for my lack of action

It's a vicious cycle and I'm trapped inside it

Do I grin and bear it I'm so indecisive

And I'm so confused how did it come to this

Should I even try? Staying absent minded

I was on top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground

I was on top

Top of the world

But I've huddled back underground