spider Lyrics

I'm sick of the waiting

I think I need to choose

Cause either direction

Will lead me to a ruse

And if I reverse it

I think I'll end up lost

This fragmented fixture

Hanging on my wall

A single incision

And everything will fall

So what is my purpose

If I'm made to lose it all

You made your choice but now

You tend to come around

Like you're needing something from me

Plucked the jewels straight out my crown

Plagued upon my weakness

While you covered it with kindness

You did what the saying says

While I was simply walking blinded

Got a virus in my garden

All these issues are deep rooted

You went across a line

Unprepared cause you weren't suited

To try and play me with the ways

I laid out to you first

Man I should've kept my mouth shut

Bout the things that make me hurt

You liar, deceiver

I don't understand

It's like economics

Supply paired with demand

I had all the product

But you just shook your head

I found an investor

But now you're interested

I need understanding

Before I take the hit

You said you were different

Just a different hypocrite

I trusted you

Loved in you

Gave you time I chose to lose

Just so I could be there but I guess that I'm the fool

My number came up zero

But I guess what I am seeing

Is that when I'm left with nothing

It is time for new beginnings

Cause I refuse to lose to you

I'll use this pain as fossil fuel

A thousand gallon water tank

Can't make my fire cool

You spun a web of lies

But now you're running out of spool

I'm checking out of class

And walking backwards from this school

Cause now I see I realize

I only really have my guys

They'd never look me in the face

And tell a thousand pretty lies

They understand the pain I feel

Without a moments hesitation

If they saw me bleeding out

They'd start resuscitating

A part of me

You left abandoned

Now you wanna

Act all restless

Paint me out like

I'm the villain

You're the one that's

Really wicked

Finally made

My decision

I don't wanna

Live this vision

That you've conjured

It's a sickness

Soap opera drama

Stop the filming

I think I've said my piece

I don't wanna say no more

Just know that the windows closed

I've boarded up my doors

No more opportunity

No room for second chances

The only satisfaction

I will give is passing glances

Cause you earned it