Blood Scales ft. Ren Jenne Lyrics

Shedding my skin

Hoping that my scales will find balance this time

Every piece of me that I had to leave

Will it weigh on me if I can't appease

Escape before I asphyxiate

Bend before I start to break

Shedding my skin hoping the new scales within

Will support me to begin again

Will the blood I've lost contribute

To stop teetering between two constants

Will I feel at peace in my own skin

Or am I just waiting to shed again

At the smallest scale is blood what will define me

Am I destined to fulfill a role without applying

Not be myself but what's overlying

At a larger scale is conforming

more valuable than comfort

Would you rather me contort

to fit-in by distorting

disregard my heart

I can't be content in the skin that constricts me

And not pursue the version of myself that I see

As the keratin builds and starts to separate

Do I live in the shell or just escape

Do I shed enough blood to tip the scales of fate

Because I'm struggling to demarcate

Myself between two identities

That seem to just equate

As the venom accumulates

You either wait until it's all you taste

Or you emit the toxins that underlie

As older layers of you die

You keep on breathing to survive

You share the hope you've been deprived

So as I shed my skin again

I know that trauma is leaving

I taught myself I could be gentle

Became overly sentimental

I'm just trying to live my life

In spite of feeling like I died

So in my ecdysis

Can I rewrite this

And find my reason to exist

Find peace within myself

Heal the rift

Because it kills me to resist

The self-realization within