At Least a Place to Lie Lyrics

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Disposable I feel I've been past expiration

Only relying on validation

Can anything repurpose me into another being?

I feel swallowed-up into these pitfalls

I see my half-life tick until my feelings dull

Apathy is my home away from home

It's in my sinew, it's in my bones

Can I break out of these binds that tie

Themselves tighter with time

Am I able to find any way to feel fine

Without always being left behind?

Will I compost into something new

Can I hold-on long enough to breakthrough?

To breakthrough

Do I care too much?

Do I feel too deep?

Is empathy the rope around my neck dragging me?

Am I enough, or just enough to let you down?

The air I breathe in fails to reach

My web of arteries deep beneath

Apathy keeps me company

But also makes me feel alone

I layer coats over my skin

So the numbness will sink in

I can't hide inside myself

I can't process all the ways I've felt

Am I fucked up?

Can I move on?

Am I scarred to the point I'm too far gone?

Am I scared to the point I can't rely

Am I content to be passed by

Will I be at peace when I die

When I die

It settles deep until it saturates

Emotions I cannot validate

Contaminate my mind

And get worse over time

I don't know how to not live in pain

Incarcerated in my own brain

I can't find the words to say

So I put them on display

But I can't accept what that portrays

I can't find a way to make myself feel safe

Living life like I can't even keep my own pace

So I rush ahead in hopes that I can find

A shortcut or at least a place to lie

At least a place to lie

At least a place to lie

Will I be at peace when I decide to die?