Painting Over Lyrics

So hold on now to every breeze

Because every moment is a lease

I used to submit to defeat

But we were always born to lose

It's how we handle every wave

How we respond to every change

I swear I've been tossed between the duality

Of empathy and apathy

And somewhere in between is where I rest

While one comforts me

The other lets me be my best

The other lets me be my best

I quickly learned that to be loved

You have to strip away your pride

Then I could become numb

Inanimate to the outcome

Whatever expense it takes to lose yourself

When you can't accept the cards you're dealt

I tried apathy but couldn't help

The helpless feeling in my heart

To see the misfortune of others and to play a passive part

I tried following my bliss

But couldn't help but feel I've missed

What it was like to be alive

While hiding behind an alibi

I gave up on wanting love

I gave up on wanting love

I thought others would follow suite

But the loneliness is deafening

It's hard to feel like things will change

When you're watching the bridges blaze

Uncontrollably I felt a victim to the wind

Forcing me along a path

Until it neglects to care at all

Until I spiral downward into my final resting place

Where I can decompose

Into the dirt I renew

Every aspiration that I ever held onto

Is released

And sinks into the deep recedes

Of who I used to be

I gave up on wanting love

Because I could never be enough

I'm trying hard to care for myself

Painting over every bruise