Dead Inside Lyrics

Just because I'm breathing

That doesn't mean I'm alive

The truth is, I think I'm dead inside

Just Listen, let me tell you about it

It's tricky j

I can't find the words to write this song

I can't find the strength to carry on or be strong

Only by this thread I'm just barely hanging on

Supposed to go to Mount Buller but now we're not

I know I can't be mad, and truth is that I'm not

But I do feel sad, even though my tears don't drop

I'm bothered by the fact, I can't feel things I'm lost

Like I've put on this act, of existing like a rock

I feel empty, I feel numb, I just wanna feel great

I feel heavy, I feel glum, I just needa take a break

I just wanna feel something, other than this weight

But now, I feel nothing, it makes me wanna rage

I put a knife on my arm, then watch myself bleed

Turning to self-harm, coz I wanna feel something

Feel the love from my mum, that's what I really need

But I turn to this art, with my piano and make a beat

Then for the first time in a while, I cried to this tune

Think I acted in denial, telling myself not to feel blue

Now, I sit here and smile, coz I'm out here with you

When you bring your child, I know I gotta push on through

But I've lost my hopeful glow, I'm existing like a stone

You go home to your home as I stay here on my own

Starting to see I can't cope, nobody can carry my low

Scroll my phone, reminded of the feeling of being alone

I press my hands on my neck, yeah, choking on the air

I need the antidote to show me, someone who cares

My girl broke up with me, she just sent me a text

I'm hanging by a thread, looking down at my death

I'm waiting for nothing, I swear I'm living in a loop

The same cycle every day, like that movie dejavu

I'm slowly losing hope that things will never improve

I can't do this anymore; I can't break fucking through

I, I just wanna feel alive

I just wanna feel something, but I feel so dead inside

I, I just wanna feel alright

But I lay here feeling nothing, like I'm already dead inside

Yeah, now, I've gone mute, like I've lost my voice

I can't whistle a tune, I make no noise

Wish I was there with you, instead I'm out with the boys

Tryna pull myself through, but thinking what is the point?

I don't feel joy, but still, I let you hear my laugh

I'm played like a toy, I wanna feel properly loved

But our love was destroyed, I guess I wasn't enough

And I should be annoyed, but I just feel numb

I wore a disguise coz I didn't wanna get myself hurt

But I didn't realize that's how I made everything worse

Gee when am I gonna learn, I've gotta put myself first

Now, I am submerged could things get any worse?

Look, this darkness surrounds me, wherever I go

Now, I turn to the weed, and get myself stoned

I just wanna feel something, don't wanna be alone

Maybe I should leave, coz I just dunno how to cope

And I can't deny, I know I made lots of mistakes

But I would be lying too if I told you I didn't change

We both know that I did, somehow, I found my way

But now, I'm sick, and I hope it takes me to my grave

I need this to over, I can't keep waiting for the high

Waiting on adventures, waiting every day, until I die

I thought I hide my pain well, but it numbs me inside

So, I'm violent to myself, and sometimes I wanna die

Screaming out for help, why can't anyone hear me?

If you listen, I shall tell, but you don't listen when I speak

My bedroom like a cell, I isolate myself why can't you see?

Maybe I'm just overwhelmed, can't see things clearly

Waiting for nothing, I swear I ain't living but existing

I'll be cutting onions, and still my tears are resisting

I wanna feel something, like the adrenaline I get from shoplifting

Still, I lay here and feel nothing, not one single damn feeling

I, I just wanna feel alive

I just wanna feel something, but I feel so dead inside

I, I just wanna feel alright

But I lay here feeling nothing, like I'm already dead inside