Suicidal Thoughts Lyrics

I don't know what to say right now, I can't think

My mind is jumbled, and I feel so troubled

I got these suicidal thoughts

Just listen

I wanna write a song, but I dunno what to write

I'm feeling real low, I'm so tired of this fight

And my girl don't wanna let me out of her sight

Coz if I get the chance, I'd turn out the light

My heart is full of pain, my head filled with stress

This art is no game, it helps when I'm depressed

Man, I get so afraid, when I shout, I'm upset

Sadness turns to anger, to you I could be a threat

Both my hands are in a fist, but I'd never hurt you

If I'm not cutting my wrists, now I've left the room

They say writing is my gift, I guess that'll end soon

Coz I don't want to exist, but that is nothing new

When my girl is asleep, the voices shout out loud

Telling things I shouldn't do, coz nobody is around

I've gotta hold back this, I can't let myself down

I feel scared, I'm afraid, but I will not make a sound

I don't know how much time I've got left

Tomorrow could be the day of my death

Don't know how much longer I can go on

I'm drinking some wine as I write this song

Lost in the moment, like I'm frozen in time

Cut myself open, forget about these rhymes

My suicidal thoughts, are becoming too much

I'm tryna be strong, but I don't even feel tough

I wanna be strong, but I dunno how to fight

I feel so alone, I'm losing sleep another night

I make up lies, and instead tell them I'm fine

But my mind is a scary place, I've got thoughts of suicide

And these are true lyrics, they come from my heart

I only write music when I feel like I'm giving up

I'm letting out my tears, with a knife I cut my arms

I wish I could control myself, maybe I could restart

But life is not a video game, it's like a box of treats

With flashbacks in my head, my mind can't get sleep

My legs are so drained, my whole body feels so weak

I'm alive but feel dead, like I'm numb so I cut deep

And when I'm here in the studio, I can rap this all out

I can't do it at home, alone, coz I'll just break down

I'm told if I take care of things, they will work out

But if I ruin what I have, I'll needa learn to live without

I don't know how much time I've got left

Tomorrow could be the day of my death

Don't know how much longer I can go on

I'm drinking some wine as I write this song

Lost in the moment, like I'm frozen in time

Cut myself open, forget about these rhymes

My suicidal thoughts, are becoming too much

I'm tryna be strong, but I don't even feel tough

Now, I'm smoking a bong, I'm just tryna get high

And I drink to get drunk, then go for a drive

Voices say I don't belong, and I should just die

And you sit listening along, hoping that I'll be alright

Darkness around, covers me like a blanket of mist

The act of self-harm, as blood drips from my wrist

No energy to do the things, that bring me happiness

With no motivation, I'm sorry, I think suicide I'll commit

Some days I smile, I would hide, put on a disguise

For a while, I would get high, to show I'm just fine

I force smiles, hoping you believe the lie 'I'm fine'

Bcoz it's just too hard to explain, what's really on my mind

But at night back home, thoughts come back to me

My body shivers, I'm alone, staring out towards a tree

I bought rope, tied a noose, thinking tonight it'll be

This is why I can't be alone, and most nights I can't sleep

I don't know how much time I've got left

Tomorrow could be the day of my death

Don't know how much longer I can go on

I'm drinking some wine as I write this song

Lost in the moment, like I'm frozen in time

Cut myself open, forget about these rhymes

My suicidal thoughts, are becoming too much

I'm tryna be strong, but I don't even feel tough