staring at the ceiling Lyrics

Misinformation

How did I climb to where I'd never make it

Study my patience

They told me I wouldn't ever succeed

Without an education

But times have been changing, so I took a risk

Bet on myself to go farther than this

Let me harness my wit (Witt)

Yeah, I had a vision and built up this house with my fists

I had to venture to places that I couldn't find on a map

Thought I had to sacrifice people I treasured

Cause I was so sure they were holding me back

Thought I was inclined to put blame on the world

And go place my little victim card onto the stack

But that, was the reason I stalled

I didn't push to the limit like Hall

I was fading away (Way)

Convincing myself I was finished

No more collisions, my failures so vivid

I couldn't bare anymore risky decisions

That lead to this

Part time me, part time someone

That is broken all the way to the soul

And unfortunately, the broken one is present when the sun sets

And minuscule thoughts spiral out of control

Man, it's one in morning, staring up at the ceiling

Thinking why I am the reason, for the pain that I deal with

Why do I fail to be blunt when I be sharing my feelings

Is it my inability to uncover the healing

That I know exists (Know exists)

God, I prayed for tomorrow morning

But, now I'm on the fence (On the fence)

Cause, I

Tried to keep it discrete

Yeah, I tried to relax

Didn't want people worry

If they heard I relapsed

Didn't want to be a problem

That they had to attack

I was doing just fine

I was built to adapt

You could say it's a knack

The way I hide my feelings

Been practicing the art

Of no share, concealing

And maybe that's why (That's why)

I'm staring at the ceiling all day alone

Caught in the rubble

After I sat and watched everything crumble

I had presumed, after witnessing tragedy

I'd be prepared when I stepped out the huddle

But I ain't unbuckled

Nothing has changed

Got an unhealthy routine that I've paved

And these habits are harder break when you're already broken

And drowning yourself in your wake

Man, these characteristics of mine

Tell a full story, how twisted am I

Prayed for tomorrow morning like it carried importance

But what did I fix with the time

Nothing, I splurged on my ego and pride

And still spent the hours alone

Eyes on the ceiling, I'm started to wonder

If I'm in a jail or at home

Or maybe they've been intertwined

Maybe my thoughts have been teaching me

I wasn't meant for the climb

Maybe I already stood on the peak

And I'm feeling effects of the sudden decline

Maybe I'm right where I'm meant to be placed

And I just don't know yet

Maybe I need to get out of my head

And start living before it's all over with

Maybe I'm meant to be heard

Wait, destiny's calling my phone

It told me that I'm gonna fly

But the journey will be on my own

So I get a piece of the happiness

But never the feeling of whole

Like having a hold on your heart

But not any clue of the hands on your soul

Cause, I

Tried to keep it discrete

Yeah, I tried to relax

Didn't want people worry

If they heard I relapsed

Didn't want to be a problem

That they had to attack

I was doing just fine

I was built to adapt

You could say it's a knack

The way I hide my feelings

Been practicing the art

Of no share, concealing

And maybe that's why (That's why)

I tried to keep it discrete

Yeah, I tried to relax

Didn't want people worry

If they heard I relapsed

Didn't want to be a problem

That they had to attack

I was doing just fine

I was built to adapt

You could say it's a knack

The way I hide my feelings

Been practicing the art

Of no share, concealing

And maybe that's why (That's why)

I'm staring at the ceiling

Cause, I was open minded

With these open eyelids

But the currents strong

When you sit in silence

Those thoughts are violent

Yeah, check the mileage

This overthinking

Been here a while

It's in my files

Labeled unimportant

Like I label me

When I wake up each morning

And I can't ignore it

It's a constant feeling

When half your days staring at the ceiling

All by yourself (Yourself)