In My Head Lyrics

Couldn't bare the weight of my bad decisions

Took a step back and never changed positions

Got in one crash now I chase collisions

Cause once you feel the pain it never leaves your system

I've been running for a while, trying to clear my conscious

All my cards are on the table, all I see is nonsense

I ain't a carpenter but I can fix my problems

Or maybe I can't, the happiness I squandered

I let it go out the open door that I sought

And now I'm the brink of never healing all of my thoughts

I can't believe it's true that happiness can't be bought

Cause I've been chasing after greed and now I'm empty and lost

Even with my own career taking off like a jet

I'm still clinging to the past, something I can't forget

I realized I was happier inside of my chest

When no one knew me, just a kid that blended in with the rest

Crazy how the years fly, while my brain remains set

I still feel like 17 on lonely nights when depressed

I'm clinging to my sanity but punctured my head

Trying to conquer these impulsive thoughts that left me distressed

I'm a mess but

I don't wanna leave me this way

Folded under all of my pain

Living with the scars hidden under my face

Patching up a bullet hole with a bandaid

No sense trying to conquer the demons

Wait my brain signaled to never stop dreaming

I don't if I should keep on believing

But all that is certain is

I'm stuck in my head

Banging at the door like let me go, let me go, yeah

I'm stuck in this lens

Trapped in a trans I can't escape, no chance

I'm doing my best though

Praying to the Lord that I'm gonna get a chance to fly

That I'm gonna find the will to try, yeah

God why me

What did I do to gain the luxury seat

Why was I granted the talents that have led me to be

An open minded individual who's chasing his dreams

No I'm not trying to complain but from the way that I see

There are millions other people so much better than me

I be chopping all the wood but ain't replanting my seeds

These people praying cause they need it I be praying with greed

I be praying like I didn't get a chance to be birthed

I be praying like I never lived a day on the earth

Like God looked at me and thought maybe he doesn't deserve

To have a heart and a soul cause it be destined to burn

Yeah, I think that maybe God knew I was destined to hurt

I think he knew that in my head I'd lose it all to my words

To self doubt, lack of confidence, and who I should serve, yeah

God knew I had lessons to learn

Man I'm stuck in my head

Banging at the door like let me go, let me go, yeah

I'm stuck in this lens

Trapped in a trans I can't escape, no chance

I'm doing my best though

Praying to the Lord that I'm gonna get a chance to fly

That I'm gonna find the will to try, yeah

I think I need to take a breath, just breathe

And have a little faith, I just need to believe

That I won't drift away like I'm debris in the wind

Even though it'd entail I have something new to begin

Unimaginable but somehow I was lost in the breeze

While trying to understand the problems I ain't facing with ease

Water up my knees, I'm feeling tested again

Trying to write my own story, I ain't destined to win

And maybe that's why

I don't have the strength to conquer all of the climb

Always gonna fall short or lose the battle with time

All because of lack of faith and belief in my mind

Do I truly understand the monsters lurking inside

Just waiting for the happiness to finally be mine

So they can tear apart the smiles before they fall on my face

Everyday is just a battle trying to keep up the pace

Cause I'm stuck in my head

Banging at the door like let me go, let me go, yeah

I'm stuck in this lens

Trapped in a trans I can't escape, no chance

I'm doing my best though

Praying to the Lord that I'm gonna get a chance to fly

That I'm gonna find the will to try, yeah