The Box in the Mirror (Radio Edit) ft. Odd Hal Lyrics

I'm just the box in the mirror

Staring back at the world

I don't know why is like this

Why there is so much hurt

I'm just the box in the mirror

Collecting dust on my shelf

Why do I feel so low?

I hate myself

Why do I feel this burden all the time?

Like too heavy on my back and my spine

The weight of the world doesn't suck like this

This a pornstar sucking down all your piss

While you, it's a medical marvel

Like spiderman not dying when hit by a trainful

Of People speeding down the tracks, no brake oh

Doc was an Oc, but he was really a snake so

You never know how hard the train is gonna hit

Just get your ass to work and jump in front of it

Work up the courage, every day of your life

It's like every day I have to restrain from giving up mine

I'm just the box in the mirror

Staring back at the world

I don't know why is like this

Why there is so much hurt

I'm just the box in the mirror

Collecting dust on my shelf

Why do I feel so low?

I hate myself

Pop a pill like their candy, yes I'll take another

Life feels like when the toys give up Andy

Swallow down antidepressants with a cup full of brandy

Swirl it in my mouth like a toilet bowl of candy

One two three nah try taking down nine

All in the morning right at the same time

Then one four hours later, and four after that

One six hours in and end with a splash

From this ketamine spray that you were prescribed

To help with your depression, don't take and imbibe

Five sprays over the course of an hour

Take em all at once wake up numb in the shower

I tried to end it once, I tried to get out of hell

I wrote my notes to my folks, my brother and roommate as well

I lined up the bottles on bottles of pills I'd accrued

Looked up at the sky and said "Bye, my dude"

Seven sprays up the nose and my mind went away

And so did the pain as I melted into space

Colored lights shining down, I felt like a grilled cheese

I finally closed my eyes and fell asleep

Woke up to my friend calling to check in on me

I was doing better, but still feeling

Then another friend called, I forgot I had those

We talked for an hour and my heart bloomed like a rose

I was going to be okay, I could get through the worst

'Til BPD knocked and walked me out of my door

In the hospital waiting room, I could barely stay awake

Hadn't taken my Adderall among other things

The ER didn't have some, they refused on others

Withdrawing was destined, I wanted it smothered

Woke up to my parents, yelled at them to leave

"Get out of my room and let me grieve!"

I was shipped off to inpatient, where I stayed for a week

I tried to sleep through it all, to avoid reality

People were yelling, I was withdrawing cold turkey

But if I wasn't awake, then nothing could hurt me

I'm just the box in the mirror

Staring back at the world

I don't know why is like this

Why there is so much hurt

I'm just the box in the mirror

Collecting dust on my shelf

Why do I feel so low?

I hate myself

I'm out now, I'm not saying I'm better

I'm still just as sad, and still just as bitter

Life doesn't change just cause you went to the hospital

I learned that the past eleven times or so

It never gets better, despite what they say

All the counselors and coordinators I've met on the way

Maybe it won't get better says my therapist

I'm angry inside, but I don't get pissed

I just swallow it down with more medications

Just enough to numb the situation

I don't think I'll ever be cured, I'll never have that

I just have to try to keep living… and that's that