If Only I Could Shudder Lyrics

A storm picked up the river, thrown above my head

But I can't hear a word that she said

Brother's always laughing, father stops to groan

There is something I have gotta know

If only I could shudder, the world would make sense

People would die in beds, and I'd fear that too

If I could shudder, I'd know how to feel

Never stuck on the outside again, it's not the end

What's this new urging, deep inside of me

I'll find all the danger and turn it all on me

Now I've got this craving, a lust for what I lack

A shaking of my nerves that makes my head crack!

If only I could shudder, the world would make sense

I would understand what makes them all scream

If it was easy, I'd have already won, not stuck here with this team

They all can call me what they want, go on, I don't care

Can't make me die until I win!

If only I could shudder, my mind would be free

Maybe some suffering is all that I need

If I could shudder, the pain would release

Never stuck on the outside again

Let fear never end.