Melancholic Psychedelia Lyrics

It's getting boring here in purgatory

Every day's the same old story and I'm growing nihilistic

My thoughts are getting blurry

Third person view my vision

The essence and aura of life has dulled to bored indifference

I toured the distance of my mind tryna find propriety

Tryna grasp or grip a single grit of growing life in me

Sobriety's reminding me that something died in me

The vibrance faded and sublimated quietly

Casually christian, casually buddhist

Casually thinking, I'm casually stupid

Casually my mind to realize in life there's no blueprint

I'm nothing but a spec floating on some rock, utterly useless

These shrooms and LSD used to be my recipe

I'm still tripping only difference is the sensory

Numb as hell but the void feels so lucid

Destroyed my congruence now my embassy is entropy

I'm tripping

I been clean but I'm still tripping

Barely even smoking weed, still tripping

This melancholic psychedelia

Took the L from SD, I'm barely even feeling bruh

Just existing

Just existing

Just existing

I'm just existing

This melancholic psychedelia

Took the L from the SD, I'm barely even feeling bruh

Heaven is hell and I seem to be plummeting

And the state that I'm stuck in is puzzling

Take what's left my mind, I been rummaging

To revive what these drugs had been plundering

Every emotion I know had been maximized

So the come down just had me so agonized

Now the feelings I have always analyzed

And it's always much less than my acid high

Habits I learned to believe in

Assuming it'd move me closer to my spirit

So now my new hobby im doing more frequent

From once every two months to now every weekend

Watching my mind weaken

Dropping again, tripping again, living again

Tryna ignore the fact I wish I was dead

I'm sick in the head

It's getting frightening how deep I've gone in

Feels like I'm dying each time that I trip

Feels like I'm dying each time that I trip

Feels like I'm dying each time that I trip

Feels like I'm dying to merely exist

Felt like that for so long, but the habit just plunged me deep in that abyss

I fell deep in the abyss

I'm tripping

I been clean but I'm still tripping

Barely even smoking weed, still tripping

This melancholic psychedelia

Took the L from SD, I'm barely even feeling bruh

Just existing

Just existing

Just existing

I'm just existing

This melancholic psychedelia

Took the L from the SD, I'm barely even feeling bruh