Twenty One ft. Adrianna Viera Lyrics

You are twenty-one

I want you to grow and grow

And grow and grow and grow

You are someone

I want you to grow and show the world that you're the one

You're the one

I just spent the last half of the year

Tryna teach myself an optimistic disposition

My adolescent mental state of enervation is shifting to insight and wisdom

To be real, I didn't feel like I would make it here

I came up as a nervous wreck, stressed and full of fear

Fear that I wasn't enough, a feeling that consumed me

Only to amplify each time someone would hurt or use me

Fear turned to self hate, brewing through insecurities

Churning inside an earnest mind that spiraled to obscurity

My music nourished me, lyrics could be my currency

But what's the use when I felt no one encourage me

Been feeling symptoms of bipolar since the age of seven

Destructive thoughts in every manic episode

My self esteem constantly vanishing

So gotta I give myself props for being here rapping this

You are twenty-one

I want you to grow and grow

And grow and grow and grow

You are someone

I want you to grow and show the world that you're the one

You're the one

Spiral to obscurity

I lose my grip, spiral to obscurity

I start to slip, spiral to obscurity

My life's a trip, I spiral to obscurity

Where any vibrance, any color, any hue

Monochrome and melted to greyish tint of blue

A cold, senseless, endless blue

Manic or depressed, addled and askew

The type of place I start to think is permanent

Permeated to a point of purgatory in my head

I start to think because i'm struggling with mental illnesses

That I'm incapable of change, and I spiral to obscurity

Ironically, my substance issues started years before

Was getting bullied at school, and ditched a toxic friendship

Just to be welcomed with loneliness, body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria

To cope, I started up pouring up

It was never enough

And smoking wasn't enough

Insecure about my mental health, self medicated way too much

Got a psychiatrist, four prescriptions, it didn't do much

I checked into a psyche ward cause I was boutta try ODing on pills

4 months later I attempted it, it didn't kill

Just left me more confused than I had ever been

My last attempt was on September tenth

Maybe I'm blind to try to be optimistic

But after failing suicide, my only choice is keep living

I'm often maudlin when I'm talking bout my past

I don't enjoy self pity, I just need to state the facts

I turned twenty-one, and I'm proud to see it

And i'm amazed by all the things I've been achieving

I mean that's how I learned to say "I love myself" and truly mean it

I am twenty-one

So I'm boutta grow and show the world that I'm the one

Cause I am someone

So I'm boutta grow and show the world that I'm the one