I Made Peace With My Past ft. Jaime Arin Lyrics

Forgiving you was so hard, especially because of the mental abuse you imposed

And I soon realized that if I kept holding you hostage in my head

how could I ever find inner healing for my present and for my future

I made peace with my past that made peace with my past

In order to grow, I made peace with my past

I made peace with my past that made peace with my past

Don't harbor resentment yet when life goes unplanned

I made peace with my past that made peace with my past

In order to grow, I made peace with my past

I made peace with my past that made peace with my past

In order to grow, I made peace with my past

Power in my hands, I wish that was the honest truth

Coward my head in shame cause I told I was born abused

Questioned why I confided in you just to hold some space

Eden make peace with you, I'll hold grudges like to my grave

Praying for survival cause I just wish I wasn't here

Presumed life would be better if I just wasn't here

Felt incompetent, felt like gum, yet so small

Got me thinking if I truly ever even belonged

I deserved better, kept running back to you

Kept thinking you were the answer to my problems, I'm foolish

Believing I was better written and the biggest mistake

It was the only narrative I decided to partake

Ventured for time, it became high school

How can I heal from trauma if we playing high school

My life grew wings when I knew you couldn't define me

Dragging your name through mud never granted me my inner peace

I choose me, I choose me

I choose me, I choose me

I choose me, I choose me

Resentment and vendettas no longer serve me

I choose me, I choose me

Inner healing always belongs to me

I made peace with my past

In order to grow, I made peace with my past

Don't harbor resentment yet when life goes unplanned

I made peace with my past

In order to grow, I made peace with my past

No more mental baggage that belongs in the trash

Took full ownership of the verbal abuse I was given

No longer took your potions, toxic prescriptions

So grateful you altered my perception, my biggest blessing

And now I see a testimony in all my suppression

You're notorious for gaslighting, no Christopher Wallace

Stop the fighting, I'm holding on to God's promise

That I'm the author of my script, I can never deny me

Which means you can never write my suicide story for me

No more romanticizing every word God freed me from

I stopped pointing the finger I'm destined to overcome

I will not be a scapegoat or even oppressed

I learned to accept that you're not even half a threat