Weakness Lyrics

Looking outside, watching the rain fall down on my drive

Try to decide, when will I have a right mind

What if I never pass my goals

Can't say that when I'm older

Gotta chase dreams with the shoulder lowered

Thought I had time but I lied

Destiny verified

Time's up

I admit it but I might drop

All of me until the pine box

Focus on the goal, maybe hit the road

Pull my baby girl closer, over

10-4 rover, I got a big weight on these shoulders

Weighing me down, hearing the tick-tick clock

Don't stop and I ward off my mind like the vultures

They're picking at me, failures obviously

Beating up bodyin' me, sipping this venom to sleep

Trying to hold off the beast

It's useless stupid, now I don't know what to do it's

Looking like I've been the foolish one

Calling up God, wondering how in the world he could call me son

Running it up, filling the cup

Feeling a bit stuck in a rut, what

Doing me, you could do it better

Probably better, gotta beat the whether

Whether I be good enough for the ones around me

Whether I be good enough for myself now we've

Covered the point that my wife sees

Fighting My mind is so frightening

Always been bad with punctuality

I don't know why but it is reality

Call me the late NDB, step in my mind and you'll see

List upon list, things that I've done and I wish

I could go back with my wrist, give it a flick

Make it all disappear quick

Start back when I was six, man

Looking in that mirror

Wondering why God made me up bigger

Go to school triggered

Try to be somebody they would snigger

Go figure

Moving up, I would just try to impress 'em

Doing things, saying things

Being mean never gave results

Just tried to be better

Thought if I act like them, maybe they'll like me

Thought if I talk like them, maybe they'll invite me

Never thought that maybe I was being someone I deemed dickish

Now I look back and I missed it

Wish I could switch it, damn

It's a weakness

Fighting all day

And I don't know if I can beat this weakness

Weakness

I wake up and fall down

All this time thought that I'd be safe by now

Cause I'm a gentleman

Holding all my messes inside

I'm not myself

You ain't never tried living like you

Drowning underwater while you do what they do

Feeling like a waste of space and you're miserable

Would they make amazing grace visible

Cause you're up down, up down

Like a wave been tossed round and

No one notices you though

God, I need a hand, I'm invested

Got a lot of shame in the message

Feel a little lame in the message

Anybody hearing the message

I don't know who I am

Digging like a man through the mayhem

Come on, could you give it to me, layman's

I can ever figure what the aim is

Am I a fake? Is all of this dangerous

God, are you waiting on me

What if I gain this whole piece

Am I gon' lose my soul

I'm about to lose control

God, I'm a nuisance, oh

What did you do this for

Why did you die

Why did you save me

I'm in the grave, see

When I'm down six feet

Want you to put all that dirt back on top of me

Bury me, please

I want the peace

Cunctation

An old English word meaning

Prone to or addicted to delay