Thinking Lyrics

Thinkin' bout how to maintain

Stay sane and keep frame

When the world wake up and make pain

Take aim, but these tears in my eyes, they stain

This picture's blurry, I'm worried

How do you take a mistake and make it so perfect

I'm learnin' that you

Don't think about time in the same way

Cause you outside it, I can't say

That I don't hold a grudge sometimes

When I wake up cryin' on a Wednesday

How do you catechize when these questions I ask don't comprise

Or supply a means to an answer

And sir, I need to be answered and heard

Cause I'm losin' my mind on the same line

I think that I'm runnin' out of time

Woah, and so I wrestle, don't let go

I try to balance this pencil

With all the pain in my mental

I think I need a memento

Because I'm tryin' to remember

What I don't wanna forget

See, when I feel pain it's insane

When I wave my fist and complain

Cause there ain't no train or plane

That'll fix this hole I can't erase

I can't race this clock that'll tick-tock

Might lose my mind if I have to watch

One more TikTok or Zoom Room

Can't watch my church on YouTube

I need to talk to you too

I wanna hold your hand soon

So Lord please, what do I do

When you keep walkin' me through

Do you hear my needs

When I talk to you upon my knees

I just try to get on my mind free

But I can't believe that you do see

When I can't breathe but I stop

And remember that the whole world

Wished that you'd drop

They once hung you up on that cross

And hoped that you'd pop

But there's no force of death or hell

That's ever gon' block

And now my Jesus is risen

I got a reason for livin

So I break free of the prison

That keeps on shadin' my vision

It is my mind and I visit it

All too often I live in it

No more

But look, I know we goin' through it

Got hope and of course I'm open to it

But ain't no peace, it's only ruin

Agony flowin' like it's fluid

I feel abandoned in my sewage

Somebody bought a bandage for my bruises

And a homemade poultice for my muses

Instead of food, they brought me music

When I hadn't eaten, what I'm doin'

God, I need a hand, I am afraid

Am I stuck? No, I'm ashamed

So I'm avoidin' all your gaze

Guess that I'm happy in this place

Content to graze in shallow graves

Of myself, pity, and my shame

Or maybe they're the same thing

I don't know, but I'm up feelin' my woes

And maybe I'm broken

No, maybe I'm chosen

You said dive in this pool

Ain't even dippin' my toes in

I feel you're too generous

No way this isn't somethin

That's gon' bite me back

Sometimes it's the heaviest weight that you lift

All the thoughts in your mind, if they shifted

Left or right, it would tip you over

Now I know why people aren't sober

I know why we play Red Rover

It's to simulate the feelin' we get inside

When we try to break free with nowhere to hide

Your mind is a jail cell if you let it be

But I don't ever let it get to me

Who am I kiddin'

See, check all this robbery

That's what I call it

When I see the time that I wasted

Thinkin' bout all of my pain

And I regret the payment

What I mean is I pay attention

To the fear, lies, and your questions

Now it's high time I tell him goodbye

I might burn him alive

Let him choke die for the pain

I let him give to me

I think I'm gifted

See, Jesus remembered me when I was down low

Six feet in the ground, oh

What a mystery

But you know what

Now that I'm livin' in God's grace

Can I tell you a little bit of my story

Gotta begin in the back 40

Livin' like nobody did know me

But try to please the people before me

But God showed me when I finally gave it

Way more to life than livin' in the basement

Fear God, not man

It's amazing

Just thinkin', man, you know what

Nathan, yo, maybe you can show 'em the basics

Get out of bed and show up face it

Thinkin'