Feb. 14 Lyrics
- Genre:Spoken Word
- Year of Release:2023
Lyrics
Tar-black clouds reign my mind tonight
Forming slowly in fruition
My eyes lost in the foggy windows
Of this nighttime van
My mind swirling
To broken oaths, mindless missteps
And shorthanded schemes
That brought me to this hell
There's the last nail in my coffin
Just waiting for the last hit on the head
God save my soul
I swear I'm gonna do it this time
And I love you to the bones
But a flourishing garden may still turn to a wilted rose
And doubts still eat me up to the core
That in the sands of time, I don't stand a chance
And you'd come to understand
I'm hopeless and too weak for us
And I'd be left alone and frozen
In this dim-lit restaurant
Wondering how I lost everything at once
Six hours flew and I'm still here
Holding on to your words you'll be here
I have nowhere else and no one else
Sick hearts don't blend well with fear
Past loves and epitaphs are quite a stir
Should I really go through a thousand hells?
And the rains can't drown out
The noise of screaming voices so loud
A convention of ghosts uprising in my mind
And all my life, I've been suspicious
Of people's intentions
Until you
I've been so used to being used
That all kindness I have refused
But not from you
My fall from grace and tonight's storms
Must be enough for you to desert
I'd collect my things and beaten self
From the cold empty table
Say goodbye to everything that holds
I would
But then there you are
Rain-soaked and smiling, standing outside
There you are
My safe haven and shining knight
Fully drenched from braving the storm
Travelled for six hours with a dead phone
Just to meet my fucking mess of a soul
"What's wrong?" you uttered mid-dinner
I said, "I'll tell you later" But to tell
God's honest truth is a struggle
I can't risk this love turn to rubble
If this is the last night of us, It will be the last of mine
I can't spend a lifetime getting over you
But you're the one
I can cleanse and confess my soul into
I've lost trust in churches one decade ago
And so, I break myself into pieces
Splattered across our hotel room in this city
All my failed schemes and undoing divulged
I cry, "I am to blame" I freeze in the end
With my body submerged
At the thought of your abandonment
But you just smile
You take my hand and plant a kiss
I hold out one hand from forming a fist
Without a word, you pull me in
I feel all heaviness lifted and my demons flee
We fall in silence and my dark clouds cleared
Like a surreal baptism, I've been cleaned
I thought the pain was gonna come
But you've dried the rain away
I'll be getting over you my whole life