Lifelong questionnaire Lyrics

All this time, I tried my best

But I can't seem to forget

The Oriental wave splashes on my feet

Your kisses that envelop the wholeness of me

The long handwritten note at a coffee shop

Your voice confessing you were in love

My prayers thankful for you

The sails that hoisted in my view

I remember thinking

'This is it,' The certainty amidst all regrets

Sure enough to throw all my bets

Stuck to the idea of a love that's true

Deep enough of a haze to dive into

That February 29th

Your lips piercing everything that's mine

The smiling waitress at that restaurant

The blush that spread when we held hands

The forever promise encrypted in our minds

The roses that wilted in our living room

My mother's smile when I told her of you

Your roots filled my lungs and grew

But I recall the hustle and the panic

Turning around back and forth in manic

Always on the run after a moment of fun

Always chasing the night, never basking in the sun

Catching my breath, I remember asking

All these town skipping and furtive meetings

When will we ever stop running?

Was ours the type of love best hidden in the dark?

When will we ever risk burning in the morning warmth?

And I remember snubbing the madness

Fooling ourselves it is temporary

Flew back in a haste for the reboot

But we're always a change short of truth

How did our souls get so fucking heavy

That the cradle we molded with love

Broke the second we stepped back in?

How did our holes become so fucking empty

That when we returned to the rough

We lost track on how to begin?

I prayed to God for mercy

To let all this be delusionary

But we pierced our hearts deep enough

And we ended with nothing but

A lifelong questionnaire in our hearts

How do sparks happen and how do they reoccur?

What was that haze I saw when I first held you

And where was that gaze you gave me on that hotel room?

When will we ever risk holding hands before dark?

Did I stay too comfortable in your arms

That more than once you tried to break apart?

When will be ever be free from these ribbons

Tying us back to this addiction?

When did we ever stop that sweet tension?

Did it linger too long to transfigure into friction?

Did it matter when I tried to hold on

Even with wounded hands in that thorny rope?

When my blood splattered, did heaven mourn?

Did it matter when in hell I still looked for home?

Will this triste feeling ever come to calm down?

Will we rise above this feeling to try and come around?

If I ever meet you again, will we smile or feel resent?

I don't want to end up with nothing but these questions

Unanswered and without resolution