Beige sunrise Lyrics

That golden flicker of your lighter

The burning wick of my birthday candle

My blushing face and your laughter

Closed my eyes to wish us forever

Woke to the sight of your angel face

I wished for more days like this

To retire in cold bedsheets

To be warmed by your embrace

Your grey hoodie, my dark-green sweatshirt

You were with me, my nightly breather

My midnight blues are tantamount

To the past's voices so crass and loud

The creeping fear that I'd mess this up too

Like the love I had and lost before you

It took a long while for my faith renewed

And close the chapter I thought

I'm forever entombed

Midnight stars glowed and shone

But my eyes only fixed on you

My heartbeats in rhythm like it never broke

Constellations in your eyes read I'm meant for you

We stayed up all night

And when the sun came up

The soft beige sunrise kissing you with its rays

A silhouette so perfect I drowned in a haze

Two months in the highest heavens

I slept in comfort as you changed seasons

I was so stupidly deep under

That I never heard the thunder

I was in disbelief when I opened my eyes

The clouds so dark I thought I lost my sight

Time burned our story into ashes

As I searched for you intoxicated

I gave up my long wait and drank the painful acid

You were gone with no trace and

My heart turned rancid

The short song that I wrote

I put on blast to the world

I thought the bills would pay the pain's worth

And cleanse my soul denied of heaven's door

19 and 25 is 44

Six hundred days of hearts divorced

How do I unhear our conversations

Unlearn our dreams and crafted visions

The small future if we were to be together

Or the promise of holding on for each other?

Songs you played me forever reverberate

I still have your lighter on the round table

Clothes you bought I couldn't get myself to wear

Still lay on the corner of my foldable closet

I dream of being reborn

Freed from the memories of us

But in downtimes, I still mourn

You were the sunrise I was waiting for

I've lied straight to my friends' faces

'I've moved on,' but at nights, I lay wasted

I await my faith to renew its vows

As my soul rest in this tomb underground