Smell the Roses Lyrics

They going to switch up

Show you pictures

Tell you how it used to be

When you was teenagers

Now feels like we enemies

Fell apart

Fell down to my fucking knees

Praying that I'll die before I'm dope sick

I'm begging fucking, please

I've seen a couple come and go you aren't the first to leave

I'd be lying if I said my heart ain't on my sleeve

Numbed myself by popping bars I know I'm still naive

Seen my mumma cry too much and I can't let her grieve

But I'm still battling demons, yeah with no relief

Shit I'm about to relapse, what'll that achieve?

Another body in the ground for you to go and see?

Or should I keep on suffering and letting out these pleas?

Become so weak I'll blow over in the breeze

This an illness why you treating it like a disease

Held your hand so close and gave it a squeeze

It was in that moment that my heart seized

It doesn't feel the same like it used to

This going to take some, yeah, some getting used to

I guess I'm not who you thought you knew

I lay awake at night wishing I ain't make it through

Wish I could look you in your eyes and tell you it's not true

But I fucking reminisce on how I turned blue

Wish that I never woke up and didn't make it through

How could I even think that am I ungrateful?

They going to switch up

Show you pictures

Tell you how it used to be

When you was teenagers

Now feels like we enemies

Fell apart

Fell down to my fucking knees

Praying that ill die before I'm dope sick

I'm begging, fucking please

I've seen a couple come and go you ain't the first to leave

I'd be lying if I said my heart ain't on my sleeve

Numbed myself by popping bars I know I'm still naive

Seen my mumma cry too much and I can't let her grieve

Cleaned up my act just to choke

I don't know how long for

Still racking up lines of the blow

Still smoking and moving real slow

I've never been this low not at all

Learned to embrace the fall

It's perpetual

The cycles brutal

Make yourself useful

Seeking out approval

Because it is all you know

Then you'll be stable

Moved away in April

Lived with my angel

Never been so fragile

It's a losing battle

Ohhhh it's a losing battle I know

You're doing your best and it shows

But who knows?

Had to take a minute just to smell the roses

While I was almost overdosing

My love overflowing

It's my time and I'm going

Never done so much growing

All the pain that I'm holding

All the pain that I'm holding

All the hate and self-loathing

It doesn't feel the same like it used to

This going to take some, yeah, some getting used to

I guess I'm not who you thought you knew

I lay awake at night wishing I ain't make it through

Wish I could look you in your eyes and tell you it's not true

But I fucking reminisce on how I turned blue

Wish that I never woke up and didn't make it through

How could I even think that am I ungrateful?

They going to switch up

Show you pictures

Tell you how it used to be

When you was teenagers

Now feels like we enemies

Fell apart

Fell down to my fucking knees

Praying that I'll die before I'm dope sick

I'm begging fucking, please

I've seen a couple come and go you aren't the first to leave

I'd be lying if I said my heart ain't on my sleeve

Numbed myself by popping bars I know I'm still naive

Seen my mumma cry too much and I can't let her grieve

They going to switch up

Show you pictures

Tell you how it used to be

When you was teenagers

Now feels like we enemies

Fell apart

Fell down to my fucking knees

Praying that I'll die before I'm dope sick

I'm begging fucking, please

I've seen a couple come and go you aren't the first to leave

I'd be lying if I said my heart ain't on my sleeve

Numbed myself by popping bars I know I'm still naive

Seen my mumma cry too much and I can't let her grieve

Cleaned up my act just to choke

I don't know how long for

Still racking up lines of the blow

Still smoking and moving real slow

I've never been this low, not at all

Learned to embrace the fall

It's perpetual

The cycles brutal

Make yourself useful

Seeking out approval

Because it is all you know

Then you'll be stable

Moved away in April

Lived with my angel

Never been so fragile

It's a losing battle

Ohhhh it's a losing battle I know

You're doing your best and it shows

But who knows?

Had to take a minute just to smell the roses

While I was almost overdosing

My love overflowing

It's my time and I'm going

Never done so much growing

All the pain that I'm holding

All the pain that I'm holding

All the hate and self-loathing