since a kid... Lyrics

Waiting round all day God can you fix me up

Even though I'm stuck on my ass really ain't doing nun

My parents saw that in me when I was a kid super young

And brought the hammer down in attempts to toughen me up

Think they saw something in me that was as bright as the sun

But couldn't live up to it in trouble for stupid actions

My dad was hard on me his words would penetrate like a gun

Today I'm thankful but I won't lie he did a tad too much

That's because he saw a legend dead asleep in his son

I'll probably see the same in mine if I end up having one

But man it really was a challenge as I was aging uh

Shit let me take you back to days where I wasn't worth a crumb

It was when

I was the class clown, glasses on deck

Looked hella dorky but I cracked jokes 'stead of acing a test

I shoot my shot and I missed

I had too many crushes

And man I stood out, was too tall

Their eyes made me sick

It wasn't long turned to a bully I got tired of shit

I thought we were just messing but I caused my friends some damage

I only moved but he flinched, like what

Like boy stop tripping, wait

Oh, I'm the one who really tripping

Running drills in basketball of course I never listened

Only made the team cuz I'm big and they forced me to fit in

I ain't even try out of my volition

Every time I played I schemed 'bout how I could relinquish my position

Thinking how much longer 'till I've risen

Was a lil kid tryna break suffocating conditions I don't

Get how I'm supposed to start up my own ignition I fold

Almost like paper but got nagged by my mission

Back to waiting round

God please fix me up why I'm always feeling bound

How I panic in my seat but still don't make a sound

Why I feel so comfortable stuck in the background

Every step I took truly was a pound for pound

Never did it loud if they knew they'd try to jab me down

That's how I feel about

The ones who living fake

The ones who said I ain't nothing

Made me clear the way, but

Maybe one day

(Maybe one day)

Maybe one day I can keep up my faith

(Keep up my faith)

Maybe one day I won't have a bad taste left

(Have a bad taste)

In my mouth from emotions that were misplaced

(That were misplaced)

Like maybe one day I can be a better man

(Be a better man)

Like maybe one day you can get out my face

(Get out my face)

Like maybe one day I can figure out what's next

(Finding what's next)

In my head scared of life its never certain

(Never certain)

Look at us now Aidan

We always missed our shot now we laid up with our main lady

Keep observing you will weed out all the folks who are shady

And keep working on your talents right now that's why they all pay me

Uh

Look, look at us now Aidan

Fuck your anxiety, life is life no need to be shaky

Bet we'll still be getting better even after age eighty

We'll live our lives to the fullest surprise ourselves on the daily