confession Lyrics

I seen my aunt on the floor crying

No reaching hands I ain't know what to do

I seen my father hooked up in the hospital

He barely made it he breathes from a tube

I seen my mom on the couch, sipping her wine

Watch her stress as it dilute

I held my ex in my arms as she cried

Genuine love wonder what went askew

I heard my cousin been cracked out on drugs

Running from bullets a life he could lose

I look myself in the eyes in the mirror

Body shame when I feel slightly obtuse

Used to care bout the thoughts birthed from my peers

Now couldn't bother from words that they spew

Clipping off all of my dreads with some sheers

God is my shepherd I gotta pull through

People like what is you talking its books or the music lil nigga you gon have to choose

Devil like fuck all the talking I know that you lonely got bitches right here you can screw

I cannot fathom a one night stand

Filled the wrong hole not your heart but her womb

I put my feelings in front of me

This open carry more lethal than your pistol dude

I spent the last days, weeks, months, years shit

Looking for ways to break through

She got a squad in her ear

Telling her what she should be even what she should do

Felt like a deer in headlights every time you got the nerve to tell me bad news

I wanna see your heart

Want the real thing I don't get turned on by nudes

I wanna feel your scars

Trust me I'm here to heal I would never mean to bruise

One slip up now we both lost trust

And we go our own ways that's just how it is

Used to be close friends now when we cross in public its just deja vu

Yeah I might miss you but the last thing I'm gon do is tell you huh

D and D on my celly right now I'm focusing on my next move

Don't judge too fast my nigga you ain't take one step in that person's shoes

And I wouldn't even want to

See everyone got their issues too

But everyone act good can't show weakness they might fuck with you

When you really that down do you even have someone that you can vent to

At most when you see me you won't even get a lil preview

But I'm tired of hiding

Tired of griping

Tired of when I'm asked I'm good I say I'm tired

Tired of being the bad guy you know you had my best you such a liar

Sometimes wanna give in but its in my blood man I'm tired of being a fighter

God given gift for a reason best way to cope is when you are a writer

You don't like your pain so you look into a different fire

Crazy how we start that young shit crying for a pacifier