Hopeless Lyrics

There, I go

I'm in another mood,

Don't know how to get out of this hole,

That I put myself into,

I've been feeling hopeless,

Feel like no one can save me,

I feel like I'm better off if God would let me just hang me,

I've been under pressure lately,

Can't sleep,

Insomniating,

I can't even love

Or else I'll destroy our relationship,

Everyone who hates me

This is what they're praying for,

I used to think life was a prize

But now who's dying for it,

I'm just wondering,

Why does God put me through my depression?

I get to meet a girl,

And then,

After a second

Everything goes well

Then breaks,

It falls apart

Why do you give me love,

If you know it breaks my heart?

I remember I was 14,

Breaking,

My life was folding,

I met an attractive girl who ended up making me depressive,

And then,

Toxic love spiral out of my control,

I had to go to therapy because illness took over my soul,

So take me to when I'm 15,

Break up,

Shattered

Tried to slit my wrists,

My heart is shaking

My mama told me that self harm is worth no girl,

"I don't know why you'd hurt yourself".

There's plenty other fish in the sea

But it's hard to see when you've been drowning.

Then when I'm 16.

I don't know how to handle the cell

Life is like a living Hell.

But nobody can tell.

I put my faith in God

And stroke.

I can't believe this

I, can barely see the miracles in life

As you can see it

I hit my 17's,

My attitude needs some adjusting

I'm still stuck on the past,

So every day is just fucking,

Killing me inside,

Everyday,

I don't know why

Why am I still stuck if it's not meant to be in my life?

I can hear your voice,

I think I love you,

I can hear your voice,

I think I love you,

Nobody said life was easy

It's not,

Cause they'd be lying,

I know we all go through struggles,

I just bitch in song,

About mine,

I think about suicide

About every day and night,

I should probably get some help

But I'll take a walk in your shoes,

If you're willing to walk in mine

I've only attempted once,

Twice,

Shit maybe 3 times,

But I represent a dime for every time I be crying,

Dying to die,

Lying bout dying to die

Shit maybe my life is just a big lie,

But before I go to hang myself,

I have an epiphany

I begin to think it's not the world that has it in for me,

I start to have second thoughts,

Devil's advocate of types

But then a voice tells me to strangle myself,

And I won't pull through but,

It's human nature,

Good versus evil

And if I die from this then it was just the little people,

On my shoulder telling me what's right,

I'll die,

Go to sleep forever and happily rest in peace,

I lived a troubled life but things were just meant to be,

I think I love you