Grow 'N Up ft. Clari Bernaudo Lyrics

Yeah, see I just wanna sit here for a minute

Reflecting on my past, future, living in the present

I wish I had the words to talk about this process

Drain my energy in music, spend it all into my projects

So while I'm writing notes from my pen to the pad

To my laptop notes tab, a feeling lurks me so bad

Kinda a tear-jerk if I'm being truly honest

Kinda lost my close friends, and while we on this topic

I always give a shoutout but I had to resist

And I pushed many away, mental issues are a bitch

So I say it anyways through this one-take,

Gone tomorrow, here today but I'll always be the Jake

You love and the one kind of person you'd like to see

Live successfully through the music I release

Hope I can be the beacon to inspire so I'll always be

Sitting right above this fire for you and me

To get myself better

Regardless of the weather: stormy days or sunny nights

But we'll always be together, never give up, even if we never blow up

I'm sure we'll always glow up, but we'll never have to show up

I'm sure there'll be a day, where we can relax and chill

But if that ain't today, I won't go back on pills

And I say what I mean when I say I'm being ill

But I'm back in therapy, to make me strong-willed

'Cause this last year until today or even since I started

Word to Dr. Dre, 2 shots back dearly departed

And I still have yet, for my music to be charted

But I've been working still to, get to be the hardest

I'm getting closer day by day, I'm sending this pain away

I hope you can understand me, I am better, better today

So no this ain't goodbye, it's a see you later

So with that being said, it's farewell, you alligator

Life has been so busy and I've been so inactive

It's like spinning in a washer, but I don't know how it happened

It all started with depression, then I started rapping

And dream of me performing as the audience be clappin'

That's unrealistic optimism, but I'm a pessimist

So I guess you could say, I'm realistic in my projections

Started from the bottom, bootstrapped my way to here

Barely any money, just paid a buddy $20 to get a microphone that he used and that I started with

But you see that's after "Sick & Twisted" with my turtle shit

Did that on a headset and now this on a microphone

Doing this music, I did it on my own, no, I did it with the fans, cause the support is how I thrive

And it makes no difference if it's a one or a five, a ten or a hundred, a thousand or a million

This is what it's like for an Iowa civilian? And to see this shit transform is reptilian

See the snakes change colors but it's fuck the chameleons

And some of my teachers thought that I was brilliant but I never gave up, had to learn to be resilient

Learned to adapt or else I would've perished, suicide was an option but that would've been nightmarish

For my family and for me, life has been anyways

But the struggles from last year up till now has been a daze

Like waking up for coffee but the weed makes you so blazed

It's like car in traffic on a rainy day

But I'm living proof and I did get through it

So if you need some motivation, just look to me 'cause you'll do great

I don't mean so I can brag, I just think it so it's true

Someone believed in me and now I'm doing it for you

I'm getting closer day by day, I'm sending this pain away

I hope you can understand me, I am better, better today

The music is what saved me, but there's no way I can foresee

If my future becomes brighter, I just want to believe

The music is what saved me, but there's no way I can foresee

If my future becomes brighter I just want to believe