Cynical Lyrics

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault

Like it ain't my fault

It be in my bones

I'm blaming my parents

That I'm yet to grow

Cause if they had taught me

That I could be wrong

Would I be where I'm at

I got no one to call

When I'm losing hope

You be on my phone

Only your image

So I start to crawl

Inside of a hole

In my mind I call home

Start to lose track

Of the things that I've wrote

Have I said this before, ay

I don't recall

But what if it was me all along

That melted my core, damn

Maybe I'm bad

For the people around me

And more

Maybe I don't know

What I've been up doing

Maybe it's me who

I've always been screwing

'Round till dull

Feelings and all

So I start to question if I should be gone, ay yuh

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault

Like even while writing this

I want a Vicodin

All of the pain

Ain't enough in just writing it, ay

Beg you to stay

To stay far away

Cause I don't know who I am today

Baby this isn't it

I can envision it

Up in my head

While I'm starting to feel it split, ay

Maybe I like when it hurts

Cause then it could end up with me in a hearse

And that's probably easier

On all my family, uh

Easier, I be imagining

All of these passages

Writing and rambling

I can't make out what is really reality, uh

I get it though

It will be better all

After the night

Has be something beautiful, ay

But if I can't sleep

Then the wait just ain't suitable

I just don't think it's that doable

I can not do it all

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault

Could hearts be so beautiful

Mine feels so cynical

Help me

I swear it's not my fault