may weather

Sometimes I like to sit in my car without even driving

Reassured that I could go somewhere - if I decided

But the sword's always double-edged medal always double sided

Wave of melancholy washing over me I might just ride it

'Cause in the end it's all self induced

Fear the future when I count the many times I've held my health abused

Lots of partying and bullshit - how I try to keep myself amused

Trying to paint a perfect picture gotta find myself a muse

Known some that gave me room to stay few that gave me shelter

Just a stream trying to find a river headed to a delta

Gotta get my heart fixed need a welder

She smiled at me I dmed her and that's where the story ended