may weather Lyrics

Sometimes I like to sit in my car without even driving

Reassured that I could go somewhere - if I decided

But the sword's always double-edged medal always double sided

Wave of melancholy washing over me I might just ride it

'Cause in the end it's all self induced

Fear the future when I count the many times I've held my health abused

Lots of partying and bullshit - how I try to keep myself amused

Trying to paint a perfect picture gotta find myself a muse

Known some that gave me room to stay few that gave me shelter

Just a stream trying to find a river headed to a delta

Gotta get my heart fixed need a welder

She smiled at me I dmed her and that's where the story ended

But no problem I'll prolly have five more crushes 'til December

Stemming from the worst wounds are the best things to remember

I always say I try but I never do

Tired of living in disguise I ain't ever true

Took the limping out my stride

Put a limit on my pride

Went and swallowed it and found it to be edible

My to do list says to find what I'm meant to do

Had an offer made by life that I can't refuse

Built a clock I made some time

Stopped the bombings in my mind

All my thoughts disarmed but I kept the fuse

Pressed play on life years later barely been through the intro

Dropped in a maze robbed of the slightest info

Wonder what I'm in for -huh

Always dreaded Sundays more than a Monday

Found the end of freedom to be worse than the start of the mundane

But light is best when the sun fades

Had to change my mindset for something that'll pay better

Change of climate hit me hard like may weather

Come spring and summer that's seasoning to my years

Vote emotional motions reasoning with my tears

Met some bad apples the reason I miss my peers

Never something bad happened the reason I drink my beers

Lack of confidence often is the reason I ain't heard

Lot of thoughts but always end up saying the same words

I always say I try but I never do

Tired of living in disguise I ain't ever true

Took the limping out my stride

Put a limit on my pride

Went and swallowed it and found it to be edible

My to do list says to find what I'm meant to do

Had an offer made by life that I can't refuse

Built a clock I made some time

Stopped the bombings in my mind

All my thoughts disarmed but I kept the fuse

"And that's when I ask

Am I really being sad or is it just the alcohol coming down?

And if it's not that, what am I coming down from? It's not like I've ever really been high. Well except last night but you know what I mean like what do I have to be sad for?"