Train of Thought Lyrics

Tell me tell me issa blessing or a burden

Please send a message am I meant for this purpose

Born into this world it's a circus

A young Son of Christ in the corpus

Tell me tell me issa blessing or a burden

Please turn my wrongs into lessons into riches

Should I cut ties and burn all those bridges

Gathered all my thoughts, and I turned them into lines

Inception of them feelings that I got, and I'm burdened by they size 'cause

I'm Nauseous when they turning into knots but I keep'em in disguise

Appalling is the truth, connecting all the dots as I'm crushing all the lies

Growing while I'm pushing through this mess

Elevated by this kush I be taking couple breaths

One shot, two shots, started seeing blurry when I text

Couple messages I been curving in my head

Gotta keep my secrets hidden deep in my chest

So I wonder what's my calling in my early twenties

'Cause I don't want a life where I struggle for my pennies

Been investing all my stubs, while the rest gotta spend it

But money is a drug, I want more like the bank when they lend it

Studying the system and this game

Finessing all the rules but I'll never be the same

I partly want change but I wanna stay sane

I'm fragile in my faith, and I fear

That ego starts to show if I make it with some fame

Tormented by dilemmas that I face

Be a victim or a pilgrim, dirtying my hands for a raise

The devil has secured me in those chains

To find a middle ground between wealth

And a stealthy modest life is insane

'Cause living as a Christian in my conscience has brought me lots of pain

And despite, all the blessings that I have, I feel guilty in some ways

Guilty of my sins while I'm pointing all my digits

I'm tryna shake it off but I struggle with my limits

Feeling like a snake cuz I'm shedding all my skins

Hypocritical cuz I let the devil visit

But listen when I say

They all so superstitious with they signs of the zodiac

Looking at the stars when they align, I'm a Taurus stubborn like a Kodiak

But please bear with me, I don't mean the disrespect

I'm prolly just confused cuz my words they manifest

So much hate and contempt, so they'll never understand

They think I'm not exempted, but I'm winning undermanned

Been feeling all the pressure like them precious diamonds

But I could never fold got the lord, blessin me dayiman

But I'm tempted in my soul, I know the devil smiling

Been thinking bout those girls in my past, they got me all dialin'

I watch'em and watch us

I watch'em and watch us

I watch'em and watch us

I watch'em and watch us

Following idols, with eyes closed

Millions of disciples, with tribals

Exclusive like they Tidal, they claiming

They're entitled but where the fuck's yo title

Believing you're a God, but mortal like Titus

It's hard for y'all to kneel, maybe it's arthritis

Or maybe it's the pride that we keep deep inside us

'Cause ego and the lies are the cause, they divide us

I'm watching from afar, but really I'm the same

Cairo's "mattar" got me thinking bout my bars

Flying over heads cuz I wrote'em from the plane

Or maybe cuz they hard like my ways

Reflecting bout those days before I started rappin'

Listen

Twenty Seventeen, I saw my life flash

This only had a meaning, "forget about the past"

Heartbroken from a bitch, our story didn't last

Was walking with a hitch, my leg was in a cast

Surgery went wrong, sleeping gas almost killed me

Although it wasn't long, I saw God tryna show me

I'll be missed if I'm gone, gotta change but I'm still me

Now I make a song bout my story, in case he wanna take me

Hit a flatline but I'm baptized, I'm chastised for my lies

But I promise, that his time I'll make rhymes

Straighten like them french fries, gotta catch up with the lost time

Gotta cut ties with the capsized, they cap size is hiding all this sunrise

It's why I'm changing up

I'm gonna make it right like I'm flawless

Thinking bout my wallets like when shopping in Adonis

I'm tryna get cleansed like I'm drinking from the chalice

I wash my sins away just tryna be modest