Best I've Ever Been Lyrics

We were face to face

With the end of times

So we sheltered how we felt

And locked ourselves inside

Everything has changed

We're living different lives

But the truth remains

I'm not alright

I can't say I'm not happy

Can't say I'm not the best that I have ever been

But I still feel like collapsing, pulling my heart from my chest

And begging for the end

And still that's the best I've ever been

I felt like I was able

To take on anything

But the world turned it's tables

And now I'm face down in the ring

The walls that surround me

Don't have pleasantries to spare

They know everything about me

And still don't want me there

I can't say I'm not happy

Can't say I'm not the best that I have ever been

But I still feel like collapsing, pulling my heart from my chest

And begging for the end

And still that's the best I've ever been

Cause I have struggled

All my life

Trying to find the greener grass

That they say grows on the other side

But my world crumbled

When it started feeling fine

And I'm now I'm by myself

And I'm the only person I don't like

I can't say I'm not happy

Can't say I'm not the best that I have ever been

But I still feel like collapsing, pulling my heart from my chest

And begging for the end

Cause it's the best I've ever been

Cause it's so hard to be happy

So hard to feel blessed

As you watch the things you love around you fall to pieces like the rest

World, you almost had me

Believing I could win

You must be so fucking happy

Knowing this is the best I've ever been