I Don't Understand ft. Raechelle T. Forrest Lyrics

Sitting in the dark of my cold room

Prone to have a meltdown

Creeping up real soon

My head's throbbing from the stress

Of anxiety

Waiting anxiously to be met

With some good news

Running on gas fumes

Hardships they working me

Hating how some people managed

To bring out the worst in me

Then flipped on me saying

This ain't how you supposed to be

I warned you not overstep

Don't you see you hurting me

Hope they fooling with the artistry

And the God in me

What I'm feeling deep

Hard to describe

It's wild when you tryna stay

Down with the truth

In the world where almost everybody

Glorifies the lie

That's the thoughts I hide

Keep em' down inside

Where it dwells

Circle dwindled fast

Gotta get my peace back like nobel

I thought about at one time

I thought I knew em' well

Saw the fruits they put for show

Never matched what they would tell

So much doubt in me

I don't know what is real

Prayed for better days

But the nights drive me insane

I can't last here

I'm way too far off track

Succumbing to my heart's fears

Cuz I don't understand

Used to have it all figured out

Used to have it all figured out

Used to have it all figured out

Look at it like

It's making no sense

I'm in a pit

Ain't seen the light since

Oh about a year or so

I had targeted my route

Trekking down the merry road

'Fore the lights had flickered out

And now I'm like a kid in the dark

Moving scarily

Venting to a loved one

They know what to say to ease

Then all of a sudden get this gut feeling

That I can never shake like

Is it true that I care for you

Way more than you care for me (Woah)

Yeah I get it

Know I overthink

How come when I do

Usually on the money point blank

Don't tell me I'm bugging

When I come to you I'm coming straight

Lay it on the table

Like it's silverware and dinner plates

Very slow to heal up my deepest wounds

From sharpest blades

If I fade to black

They'll be fine without me anyway

Ain't it funny how I'm sounding like this

And at this point today

When I recall a time my optimism

Outweighed everything

Hold up wait

Now I'm gunning for so many things

I don't even know if they'll come my way

Some pretty big plans that

I've formulated failed

I wonder if this here

Is even meant for me

Some folks God had me leave behind

If it was up to me I'd take em

For the ride

When it comes to this I'm known

To take up time

That's what I get for keeping all of this inside

So much doubt in me

I don't know what is real

Prayed for better days

But the nights drive me insane

I can't last here

I'm way too far off track

Succumbing to my heart's fears

Cuz I don't understand

Used to have it all figured out

Used to have it all figured out

Used to have it all figured out