Trust Issues Lyrics

I'm trying to come out on top

And end up so high

You won't even know I was down

No longer hiding my pain

I'm telling my story let's make it

The word around town

I do not look for no trouble or

Bursting of bubbles

Just chasing my heavenly crown

And peace I once found

These burdens I carry so heavy

I'm falling apart as I drop to the ground

Speaking profound

Fine I'll expound

Even with logic and doctrine that's sound

I'm telling you all

I used to bring myself to sleep

And say God don't you wake me no more

More than a loss

I was defeated

I battled the demons and seen that

I'll fall

I had to get myself right back to

Fasting and praying to God just to

Get them all off

Don't call me soft

Just cause I'm real with my feels

Not fronting like some of you frauds

I'm not here to fake

Told them that I'm here to stay

Though someone had called me

Dead weight

I'm finding my way and

God'll bring me through my phase

God'll guide me through terrain

What am I saying

That even right now in the middle of this

Here I don't feel the same

So I'm trying to learn about who I am

And I'm trying to learn about his plan

At the moment I don't understand

I don't mean to rant

But tell me what has happened to ya man

None of this has came to me by chance

Though I'm haunted by mistakes

Tucked away all my shame

And embarrassed that it's in play and

I'm looking for brighter days

But there's so much noise that it makes

So I used to just want to fade

And I'll do whatever it takes

Just to do away with the pain, ah

It's a long time comin

Ooooh We'll find our way

Though they don't expect nothing

Wasn't clear now we see

They say that time will go heal

All your wounds

Well time must be thinking it's sweet

I'm bugging

Nah let me think I wasn't

Maybe a little

But I want to be above this

I remember being so dark

That them brighter days

Man I couldn't see it coming

Foolish to think that it doesn't

Now it feels good to cheer up

Like when I go see my little cousins

I was sick and tired of the stress

Lingering along like it won't die

Couldn't hold the tears back from eyes

Heart ain't beating right I'm on machines now

Jotting down disruptions nothing was found

Might be in good health

But was sick of the war that was

Happening inside

The pain and the odds

False teachers was speaking right over

My life and was calling it God

It's no surprise

No truth to a lie

Swallowed my pride

So I'd never fold

But tell me why it's so

Rather put you on a road

That lead to death

It's a miracle I ain't gone cold

Had my confidence then they sold

Can't believe I let go of the hold

Was all alone and it sucked

Now I'm trying to become better than I ever been

Building with the brethren

Focused on what's heaven sent

Sight is on above

I don't look down I look up

Got to guard my trust

Got to watch that

Careful if you cop that

Played for a fool too many times

Peep the numbers down the line

When I crunch stats

Now I got to bounce back

Feel the scars through the words

That I'm speaking

Dirt on name that was clean and

Do it not just say it's how I be

Don't give your word

Knowing you'll never won't keep it

It's a long time comin

Ooooh We'll find our way

Though they don't expect nothing

Wasn't clear now we see