Katatonic Kwan ft. Nico Hustle Lyrics

There's a lot of people out there

That perceive me as this jovial person

That's full of laughter and a lot of joy to share to the world

But that cannot be further from the truth

On the Prozac, and a few steps from toe tag

Shell of myself, decompose while my woes drag

Under my nose and erode as my bones sag

Juxtapose with a younger soul, where's the hope at

Go through the motions with no clear motives

Only rags, no riches, here's the toll of my baggage

That I carry around, appear to be sound

But in silence, I hide behind the tears of a clown

Drugs only numb the pain

They don't really hide anything

These problems never go away

Just like these haters, so laugh now cry later

Drugs only numb the pain

They don't really hide anything

These problems never go away

Just like these haters, so laugh now cry later

Kept in the dark that I got no wattage

As gone is the spark in my eyes, melancholic

Mental breakdown from the stress, catabolic

Was there anything left? Then I felt catatonic

There's no question, depressed and lost

I'm the product and cause of these messed up thoughts

If my worth to be pawned, I'm dirt on a gauze

At the very least, everybody loves you when you're gone

Drugs only numb the pain

They don't really hide anything

These problems never go away

Just like these haters, so laugh now cry later

Drugs only numb the pain

They don't really hide anything

These problems never go away

Just like these haters, so laugh now cry later

Endlessly fret with the heaviness of debt

On my bed, existential dread, threatened by death

I'm feeling resentment for all my time spent

Dwelling in my own head, left hung by a thread

In a world of misery that loves having company

I rather spare you from the trouble that comforts me

If you do come for me, I'll push you away

I don't want to burden you, it's for your own sake