Lately, Pt. 3 Lyrics

i do a show and disappear

A room full of people i bleed like nobody is here

Fucked up, love drunk, i aint been sober in a year

Overdosing on these thoughts I'm getting closer to my fears

They all cheer now

They never wanted to listen

I never wanted to fit in

And so i got me a vision

I've seen too many come and go

They got lost in the system

Or ended up on the pippy

Guess its too hot in the kitchen

I'm always ready for the smoke

I just wanna make sure that i feel ready when i go

If i don't try then how am i ever gonna know

I know theres some people who think its better if i don't

But those people are only existing when I'm on my phone

This is life or death

Fuck the fame, ill be satisfied if i try my best

Another day its no rapper life that I'm tryna flex

Judge away i made sacrifices i might be next

I'm high again

But i don't think I'm coming down

Zombies off the xans but i can't ever dumb it down

They think they run the town but they're stuck in the underground

There's only so much you can take before you're underground

Another down

And his mummas wondering will he be home again

Her son is on the ground bleeding out like broken pen

Where are all your brothers now? those fuckers had no respect

You gave your life to them and now your sister can't go to bed

It's the world we live in

Loose thoughts have been driving me crazy

The old me is the person i remind me of lately

I keep my eyes on the road but my sights getting hazy

I guess I'm the one to blame getting high on the daily maybe

Loose thoughts have been driving me crazy

The old me is the person i remind me of lately

I keep my eyes on the road but my sights getting hazy

Please don't take my hand if you're trying to save me

I wanna see your mind i could give a fuck about appearances

I take this love shit seriously thats just from my experience

Tell me bout your fears girl tell me what your theory is

We can drive take my hand but not the one I'm steering with

All that means is i don't wanna lose focus

You know this baby I'm too broken

To forget my future and let all my wounds open

I see the hard working energy through both of us

I wanna shine i wanna see you shine too

I know that you will never see what i do

I really hope that i can be the right dude

If not i guess its back to facing screens in my room

And i have been up the doing the same shit for a while

Was sitting here in the dark then you came in with a smile

My brain is in denial the pain is from my childhood

Were way too old for games don't play this like a trial please

Remember watching my family taken by police

Thats how i knew it was something id never try to be

I had no idol, just people i inspired to not be like

I want advice from my parents but shit they're not alive

The doctors tried and honestly i don't want to die

But i'd give my whole fucking life to get them both on the line

For one minute id tell them both that ill never quit

But i just need some guidance to fix the state that my head is in