alucard is just dracula backwards and you're fucking draining me Lyrics

Fuck

I don't wanna think

I don't wanna leave my bed

I just wanna play dead

Stuck in a rut again, it's my fault, it always is

Don't wash my hair

Don't know who to blame, maybe it's just me

I'm making progress and then backslide takes me back to fucking

Been here before, been here my whole life

Maybe it's just me

Pick it up, pick it up, straighten up your back young man

Let go of me

No turning back, now I know, fuck

Memories all cursed

Memories of how you treated everyone you couldn't groom

And I want it back

Every minute I spent worried about looking bad in the eyes of that freak

Fuck you and the power trips - household politics

Couldn't take the fucking torture

I want it back

Can't get it back

Stop looking back

I can't move on if I can't accept the finality

But it doesn't work

Why do I still hurt

Did I deserve to burn

I was raised by a fucking predator

Why did God decide we fucking need this pain

I was spared the worst of it but I'm still feeling broken. Defeated

But I can't dwell. I can't help

Fuck it

Cant ignore the swirling vortex swallowing my mind

If I try screaming fuck it fuck you it won't make it stop or make it fake

I'm reeling and not healing and I'm not sure I can take it

But I'll try oh God I'll try oh God I'll try oh God I'll try