Body Weight Lyrics

Haunted by the vivid memories that live inside of my head

Making me sick inside

You don't deserve the space inside of my mind

Respect my boundaries

You're not so good at that

I already have discovered that

Sometimes I'm wondering where you're at

What are you doing now

Where are you located

Who are you screwing now

What are you telling them so they do not see

A monster secretly

I wonder where you're at

Do you work at the same place or did you relocate

Maybe you went away

Because I scared you with all of my threats I made

Said I would have someone come and take care of you

But then I cancelled my request

I didn't want that shit on my chest

So I just tried to give it my best

I power through

I really wanted something bad to happen to you

But I did not want to hold the guilt

Being responsible for when you wilt

I didn't want to have that inside of me

I knew it would make me sick and

I can't afford it so I

Held back and did not reprimand

I know I should've

I feel like guilty as fuck sometimes because I could've

I could've beat your ass out of shape

But I didn't want to behave like an ape

I went a different direction to avoid getting internal infection

I should've took care of you though

I had you in a headlock

But I let you go

You knew just what you were doing

You put on the perfect show

You were afraid for your life

Threatened to kill yourself if I let anybody know

It was just manipulation though

I can see clearly now yeah I know how you roll

All of your tactics

All of your lies

All of your personas that you put on to reel me in

And gain my trust

All of the things that you did and said

All of the times you wanted me in your bed

I never would have imagined what you were capable of doing until the day you did

Wanted to reel me in yeah

Wanted to wanted to wanted to reel me in

I took the bait

I was so hungry

Guess it was my fate

I had to go through it

Had to learn a lesson I guess

But I still have shit happen like right and left so

I learned my lesson but I'm second guessing

Because I feel like I did not take care of you like I should have done

But still I count all my blessings yeah

I can't go back in time

Focus on now

Look toward the future and I'm just like wow

It's so bright that it is blinding me into submission

I be what I need to be

I'm on a mission

Watch me go

I know it will be so painful to you

Hurt inside watching me come up and you will just feel the need to hide

You almost had me thank god you unmasked yourself

Played with me like a toy

Guess it brought you joy

But you won't have it no more

Nah

You'll be the one who is down on the floor

While I am on the stage

Lights shining on me

I am performing

You cannot stand to see

I am just doing my thing

I am sparkling shining just like the diamond that I am yeah

And you always knew it didn't you

You just wanted a piece of me I know you do

You just wanted to have a piece of me

Hold some of my magic permanently

Trying to steal a piece of my energy

Yeah that is how it goes

It isn't nothing new that's how they pose

Like they're a friend

Like I can put all of my trust in them

They want to know everything about me

And I didn't know it was all just pretend

Aah

I just really needed a friend

So I bought into it

I told you everything

I am an open book

I don't hide anything

But you just used it against me

To play a game and manipulate me

You were just trying to reel me in

Yeah you were just trying to reel me in

That's how you begin

Let it begin

Let it begin

Let it begin

I thought you were my friend as you reeled me in

Closer and a little bit closer again and again

Getting me closer inch by inch

You didn't have any time limit

You took as long as it needed to take

And for goodness sake

I thought that that meant that we had a bond

And a connection

And I could trust you cause of the longevity

Of the relationship

But it all went to shit and I did not see it coming

Took what you wanted from me

My eyes are open wide now I can see

I wasn't a person to you

You just wanted me physically

Was an object to you

I was just a prize

That's all that I was inside your eyes

I was a prize

Build up your ego and build up your pride

Only trying to get between my thighs

You thought that you were entitled to have me

And I didn't want it

And that's when you grabbed me

Turned off the lights so I couldn't see

Put your full body weight on top of me