contradiction Lyrics

I don't think I deserve

What I've been given

But I'm always thirsting for more

Afraid of success

I guess that's why

I avoid opportunity's knocks at my door

Oh I could change

A million different ways

And I'd still hate what I've become

Never really satisfied

A voice in my mind

Tells me I should run

But to where

I don't know

I don't know

Oh won't you take

One good look at me

I'm a big contradiction

Too small for you to see

Would you say you're proud?

It's hard to believe

That you'd love me so much

Without being deceived

Oh, don't say it now

Cause it feels like a lie

But my fear of honesty kills me inside

Oh I could change

A million different ways

And I'd still hate what I've become

Never really satisfied

A voice in my mind tells me I should run

Oh, I could write a million songs

And hear a million praises

But I'd beg to disagree

Tell me you love me

Or spit in my face

It all means the same to me

You're too kind

You're too kind

It must be dishonest

But I'll beg you to love me

Please just promise

Promise me