self destruct Lyrics

I am prone to self-destruction

Burning up till I can't function

Even in the chaos, there are patterns that arise

Until there's nothing left but tears in tired eyes

If you need me

I'll be rotting in my room

There you'll find me

Catching dust inside my tomb

I am starved for motivation

Wound up tight inside these bonds of expectation

Always too caught up in

Who I'm meant to be

Chained up by the thought

Of what you'll think of me

If you need me

I'll be rotting in my room

There you'll find me

Catching dust inside my tomb

And the chains that hold me down

They are all merely in my mind

But even so these shadow shackles

Leave me blundering and blind

And my worlds gone helter skelter

I can't stand on my own feet

So instead I sit in bed

Resigned in my defeat

I can't seem to break this cycle

I've found myself in

I've tried so hard

But still don't know where I should begin

Maybe I just need some rest

Or some therapy

I've thought too hard about it

And I've lost clarity

If you need me

I'll be rotting in my room

There you'll find me

Catching dust inside my tomb

I'm just going in circles

And it's honestly a bore

And every day that passes by

Feels just like a chore

And I feel that I'm a burden

So I hide myself away

And I grab a pen and paper

And write of my decay