Internalize Lyrics

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

You are not what they say that you are

Shattered by the words, you've been ripped apart

Lookin' for a light while you're in the dark

Lookin' for a light while you're in the dark

If you don't heal, you relive the scars

So it's best to take things slow

You are not who they say that you are

Don't let them bury you or put you in a cage

Here I am, talkin' in my head again

Sick and tired, goin' through my medicine

Wonder if I'll ever be myself again

Smile like I'm happy, yet I never am

Put all of my time into this regimen

Only thing that matters, staying relevant

It's an elephant in a room

And it's time to be honest with myself

How come I always internalize

Always in the middle, it ain't civilized at all

But I understand

If I reached out for comfort, would you take my hand

Cause I know that

No one wants to speak of comfort, but we all want it

Why have I been feeling this way since a kid

Born with the guilt, I don't know what I did

I spent half my life just finding a place to live

Only to turn around to comfort, yeah

You are no who they say that you are

Shattered and abused, you've been ripped apart

Lookin' for a light while you're in the dark

If we don't heal, we relive the scars

Pass the pain along like DNA

These days I feel I'm dreaming when I'm awake

Why do I always internalize when I know I'm not to blame

Why you always burden me with your lies

I get so tired of these games

I take so much pride in my accomplishments

Like what the hell has happened to me lately

I acknowledge that I'm not the same

Was a shame who I've come, but I've changed

I'm the one that I wanna be now

Why do I always feel compromised

Only in my element I feel alive

To the ones that say that you should give it time

It will not get better unless you really try, yeah

It's all the effort you give

And whether you, whether you whether

Whether you want it or not

Cause if you don't, somebody else will, yeah

Spring into the summer, now it's autumn

Caught up in my feels, but then I dropped 'em

Try to enjoy the silence cause it's solemn

Fertilize my soul without no pollen, I've been

Going through these thoughts in my head

I accept I'm not the person that I thought I was

But I will be

If I try, if I try, yeah

Why do I always internalize

Why do I always internalize

Looking at life with these bitter eyes

It's time to take control