Nepenthe Lyrics

There's somethings I control other things I'll never know

Been reaching for a star that I know I'll never hold

I sacrificed my happiness to make it to my goals

Yet I'm still waiting patiently alone here in the cold

I feel my soul has been frozen I used to be so outgoing

Now I just sit here in silence and try to conjure emotion

But I don't know should I continue down this road

It's seeming so overrated now that I see what I'm faced with

So many things I would change up but I just don't have the patience

To let it go so it's tearing at my soul

Runaway, runaway but you'll never get far

Praying for a change wishing on a shooting star

For nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe

We look for love like a drug but it's never been enough

So too many of us still chasing the rush

But I'm giving you nepenthe

Nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe

Most don't live to tell what they've been through

Most don't care the things that you say

I've been up and down on this journey

Not too many men that made it this way

All I care about is who sent you

Most get rejected here on my path

I'm going to make sure that you last

Defined by the future not by the past

This is not the place that you have to be

Offered hope and they laughed at me

Open minded that's tragedy

No one alive here really ever asked to be

I stay with a demon who lives on my shoulder

And feel it gets darker the more I get older

But lately I found a new way to divulge of

Depression obsession to fight until it's over and done

I'm closer to my dreams but they're not what they appear

My only enemy is staring right back in the mirror

The love I thought was fueling me is something now I fear

Scared of what'll happen when it leaves me in the clear

It's hard enough to be myself

No wonder you could use my help

Runaway runaway but you'll never get far

Praying for a change wishing on a shooting star

For nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe, runaway

We look for love like a drug but it's never been enough

So too many us still chasing the rush

But I'm giving you nepenthe

Nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe, nepenthe