I'm Sorry...For Everything... Lyrics

This letter might be incredibly ill-advised, but I think necessary, as I've been a miserable wreck since the weekend

I spent most of Sunday sobbing on the bathroom floor in my apartment, and I couldn't even go to work on Monday because I was just so depressed

You know, throughout our relationship, I always got the sense that I was more into you than you were into me, but I don't think it hit me how much I cared about you until after we broke it off.

I'm trying to move on, but I think before I can, I need to say this.

I'm sorry

I've heard so many times from so many people that the scars on your heart make the skin tougher and harder to break

They say that like it's a good thing, but I don't think it is

The fact is, deep wounds will still cut no matter how tough the skin is, and all the scars I've gained before have just made me more guarded of my own heart, even in my own detriment

You told me time and time again that all you wanted was for me to open up more

It was the simplest fucking thing in the whole world that I couldn't even deliver on it, and I don't even know why

I think I'm just starting to resign myself to the fact that I've just been hurt so many times before that at this point, I'm simply damaged goods

Remember when I said when things get serious in a relationship, I usually tell myself

"Don't screw up, don't screw up," and then I inevitably screw up

It's happened again

I have a lot of work I need to do in order to make myself a better person

This isn't going to be easy, but thank you

Thank you for taking a chance on me

Thank you for being exactly what I needed at this point in my life, and I'm sorry I couldn't be that for you in return

But that's okay