veteran Lyrics

I've been in the game so long at this point I think I might be a veteran

To you, I'm tryna be a better friend

And every day I make it back so you can hold up my own head again

Time goes by slow, then it flies

Until you see it behind

Can't ruin my day, only try

And I'll still try to remind you I said I would just think about it

Sometimes I still do

Should I be moving with the times?

Why don't I try something new?

Another ache in my side, might fade away if I'm high

That choice was counterproductive I lie awake for some time

Sitting upright beside you

Watching a movie in silence

How can I still make this work?

When old methods are burnt?

Down and out, wanna get turnt

Down for the count, I'm so burnt

How many actions can I take to no longer make this hurt?

Cause I'm still standing in the lobby

I wouldn't make you wait

I wouldn't crash your wave

It's only got my mind racing about how you might not even really care

Is there love really there?

And I wanna quit this job but I don't know how

I gotta rely on myself, my confidence like how?

Cause I just wanna go up, wanna go up right now

So I can tell everyone who doubted me look at me now

But what does it matter anyway?

When we could die like any day?

Inadequacy pains as I continue to train

And I can't escape, the soap is engrained

I feel paranoid as I taste it inside my eggs

I feel so embarrassed as I'm driving homeward in the rain

I've been in the game so long at this point I think I might be a veteran

To you, I'm tryna be a better friend

Every day I make it back so you can hold my head again