abide Lyrics

I know that I made up some more rules, but I no longer abide

And I still recognize the internal problem's mine

I don't even say anything to make myself feel like shit

Not like I even try, I see my doubts inside

Honestly I don't wanna leave

So I can't weigh you down

Long as you care for me

It'll come right back around

Everyday I hold together, hoping I make you proud

The cycle is forever, I'm tryna make it count

I'm getting my health back in check

No more red meat or croquettes

I'll live to 90 and die with no lingering regret

I'm no longer leaning on a vice, I still forget how to cope

I get discouraged daily

I botched the line, I choked

I kept on pushing the limit but it still wasn't enough

I kept on bridging the gap but I still didn't touch

And when I can't write a song, feels like I'm fading away

Over out to the grey hanging over the lake

I gotta get out my ways but there's still nothing at stake

It might be blocking my blessings the way I'm filled with this hate

So I made up some more rules, but I no longer abide

And I still recognize the internal problem's mine

I don't even say anything to make myself feel like shit

Not like I even try, I see my doubts inside

Honestly I don't wanna leave

So I can't weigh you down

Long as you care for me

It'll come right back around

Everyday I hold together, hoping I make you proud

The cycle is forever, I'm tryna make it count

I'm getting my health back in check

No more red meat or croquettes

I'll live to 90 and die with no lingering regret

I'm no longer leaning on a vice, I still forget how to cope

I get discouraged daily

I botched the line, I choked