Chaos Lyrics

I got

Chaotic tendencies floatin' through my head

Life equals chaos and chaos equals death I am lookin' for some calm, but when I'm seein' red I have lost all control

Repeat the circle again

Evading compliments regaining consciousness

All this pain I'm in hurts my common sense

Cause I know it's not

Right not to fight for myself, but my heart equals

Chaos and the chaos equals hell

And the life that I'm livin', I'm not livin for myself

Cause the life that I build just keeps crumblin down

And the thoughts that I have becoming way too loud

Hang the noose in the clouds just to numb it all out

I will give what you take, Lord, my life is

For trade

Sick of acting in ways so they think I'm okay

I'm not playin' these games, church is hard on my brain

Send me away to purgatory for heaven's sake

Chaotic issues are residing in my mind all the time

Never have a moment to myself, this is do or die

I will get down on my knees and keep on screamin why

I will hate religion with a passion till you show me reasons

I should believe that you, made me for a reason

Can't believe in you, believin' isn't seein' I know that much is true, but just show me

A sign so I know what to do I have lost all faith since I've been lost

too

I am full of regrets, full of trust issues

I have lost all my love, don't have nothin' to lose

Ever since I was born, all my thoughts have abused, me

But that's not what's wrong, it's the fact that this was your plan all along

Don't wanna keep breathin', I would rather be gone

Than keepin' up an act, showin' off a facade

I'm mad at the fact that my life is a trap

I'm a ghost of the past and you won't take me back

I'm pissed at the world and the way that it works

Can't get any traction 'less you're poppin' the perks

It's chaos

That's how I feel

When you're doin' all you can

But you can't take the wheel

When you're livin' for the moment

But that moment wasn't real when the suicidal thoughts come bitin' at your heels

When depression's takin' over

And it forces you to kneel

When the anger's comin' out

It's your soul that he steals

When you've fallen too deep

When the devil's makin' deals

They have wrecked my heart

The heart that never heals