4ourt33n Lyrics

My soul softening as you staredeep in my eyes

Little did I know that our feelings was in disguise

When I'm with you, baby, it felt like paradise

Until you left this world, and now I feel paralyzed

At 14, I didn't wanna believe that you had left me

Looking in all the cookbooks, just tryna find a recipe

A potion, a spell to bring you back so you can complete the rest of me

Don't know what I'm gon' do without you here, testin' me

Gettin' on my last nerve, askin' for answers in class

Or you'd get pissed at me for starin' too long at your ass

When I was practicin' my shot, you'd bounce back with the pass

Now we can't do that shit no more when you six feet under the grass

I remember walkin' up to you, seein' pale tint to your skin

I can tell you went out screamin' and repentin' your sins

Just wishin' that I was there, cause I didn't think this would end

I lost myself once, and I can't lose it again

I can't lose it again

Fuck

Damn

At 14, I saw your blood leakin' out

The estranged look on my face as I began to freak out

I'm screamin' out and cryin', askin' everybody, fuckin' why

As I watch your beautiful soul ascend into the sky

Why did he have to shoot you? You were just a young girl

Had big dreams, a big heart, in an even bigger world

Had dreams of marrying you, I watched it all unfurl

As they brought out that body bag, my stomach started to curl

Just yesterday, we were layin' in the grass

Lookin' up at the stars, dreamin' bout what we could have

Figurin' out what was ours, now your body is cold

And I'm left with all these scars, cause now that you're fuckin' gone, man

I feel torn apart

So torn apart, man

So torn apart, man

What am I gon' do

At 14, no kid should have to go through this type of heartbreak

The way that she went out, every second, it makes my heart ache

A hard shake to my equilibrium, they gon' put me in an asylum

Startin' to feel the delirium, but I know that you want me to go on

And I choose to go home, cause at home was in your heart

Embedded in your soul, all I'm left with is the dirt

Thought we would grow old, but the only thing that is growing

Is me, but I'm cold

I'm cold

I'm fuckin' heartless

I feel dead

Damn, what am I gon' do without you here

Guess we'll have to figure out