the hill i die on Lyrics

You cannot be

The hill that I die on

I don't know much and I know that by now

I cannot keep

Leaving the light on

Thinking I'm going to figure this out

There is no reason

To pray on a flood

There is no answer

For the hell that it was

I get no medal

For seeing this through

I get no peace

If this is the hill I choose

Losing my mind

Losing my bearings

Trying to climb up a mountain I built

This wasn't mine, but I still carry

Your weapon, my bruises, and all of our guilt

When there is no reason

To pray on a flood

There is no answer

For the hell that it was

I get no medal

For seeing this through

I get no peace

If this is the hill I choose

Can't make amends

Without making a sound

But I'm not okay with you turning around

And stealing my pride from me

Don't wanna have to feel lucky

'Cause I think you'll always

Have somewhere to be

And I cannot die hoping somewhere is me

Even if it means I lose

This can't be the hill I choose

You cannot be

The hill that I die on

I don't know much and I know that by now

I cannot keep

Leaving the light on

Thinking I'm going to figure this out