XI: Catastrophes And Eulogies Lyrics

When I woke up

I was in a nightmare

Where those around me

Were just ghost they were not there

Faces of the living and faces of the dead

All were just looking down at me

As I suffer

with tears in my eyes

Wake me up for once

I don't prefer the dream

Its traumatic

These words are static

People tire quickly

When your sad understand it

They want comfort

Won't find it in me

So they move on

I see the blind try to lead

Fix your perception

And be happy for me

I wish it was easy

That easy you don't see

That i've been trying

All these years just to be

Happy

But I'm broken indeed

Well break me

Can't you see

That my eyes shut

And I just bleed

Did you hurt me

Intentionally

Does it matter

Well really it seems

Where is the sun

Well really tell me

I fallen low now

It's really hard to breathe

Well just give me one good reason

Why I shouldn't leave

Because its catastrophic

How I process loss is a burden

I've been tryna focus

Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting

I don't wanna show this

Side of me that's lost never certain

When I woke up

I can't see anything

I don't even know

Who I am this is so strange

Why tell me lies

Why slowly cut with the knife

When you can get this over

In an instant I will be fine

It's not as if I haven't

been wounded before

It's not as if I haven't

felt loss or the cold

But for some reason

This time it just sticks to my core

And I cannot shake this

It just stays with me forever more

I was asleep

My eyes were closed

I did not foresee

The pain that was in store for me

I was in denial it seems

I was asleep

My eyes were closed

I did not foresee

The pain that was in store for me

I was in denial it seems

The truth is I can't blame you for the break

Accountability really hard to take

It seems the truth is hurt people hurt people

Even if you have a heart like the brave

So take time I will take all I need

To be the man I see in the mirror

Looking back

I never wanted to say

Anything that's hurtful to the heart

The interior

Why I shouldn't leave

Because its catastrophic

How I process loss is a burden

I've been losing focus

Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting

I don't wanna show this

Side of me that's lost never certain

Why I shouldn't leave

Because its catastrophic

How I process loss is a burden

I've been tryna focus

Treating you unfairly because I'm hurting

I don't wanna show this

Side of me that's lost

Never certain