VII: Trauma In A Sunless Valley Lyrics

Will the sun rise again for them I do not know

When the sun sets again it's still dark it doesn't show

I am empty inside like the vase that held the flowers

The anger burns slow and consumes me it devours

I don't find peace day to day I find heat

And all I wanna do is escape it and retreat

And all I wanna do is escape out from the shadows

But this life is meaningless as I'm led out from the shallows

From the depths I prefer not be crushed

But everything I face is so heavy building up

Like a mountain on top my heart and my soul

And all I wanna do is simmer down feel the cold

I'm forgotten I wanna fly up high

All of my senses feel numb I cannot hide

I can't feel I can't touch I can't see

Anything but peril yeah this hurt grabs hold of me

I'm numb

I just wanna know

If I matter

I just wanna show

That I'm moving

Along without feeling

Only because

All this hurt is revealing

I'm numb

I just wanna know

If I matter

I just wanna show

That I'm moving

Along without feeling

Only because

All this hurt is revealing

I'm past it well only in thought

Yeah I want this to be

Yeah I want everyone around me

To look at me and believe

I see it nothings really changing

It just feels so dramatic

This trauma still lacerates

This loss is so traumatic

They always the sun will rise once again

But do the lost still see it

It hurts the sun will never reach touch her face

Anymore and no I won't believe it

So save your cliches you can keep stabbing me

My heart is really barely beating

Cardiac has been the state that I'm currently in

All these years I guess I don't need it

Let me vent let me get this out there's no comfort

No comfort in this not the purpose

If I ever meant a thing you will surely understand

And that fact I hope is really worth it

I don't wanna burn bridges but indeed there's a flame

In my eyes that's why I keep them closed

Besides the sparkle that once lived there is dead

You should know and that's just how it goes

I'm numb

I just wanna know

If I matter

I just wanna show

That I'm moving

Along without feeling

Only because

All this hurt is revealing

I'm numb

I just wanna know

If I matter

I just wanna show

That I'm moving

Along without feeling

Only because

All this hurt is revealing

I'm past it well only in thought

Yeah I want this to be

Yeah I want everyone around me

To look at me and believe

I see it nothings really changing

It just feels so dramatic

This trauma still lacerates

This loss is so traumatic

So Traumatic

So Traumatic

So Traumatic