Sonnet: IV Lyrics

I really don't know what else to tell you

I was genuine the real not tryna sell you

You left me in the lurch and now I'm reeling

The consequences aren't your fault but that's the feeling

I'll admit my strength to cope is sorely lacking

If you'll admit you led me on there's no one asking

You have to search deep inside just to reveal it

I don't really think I can wait but I still feel it

You understand deep inside I have a soul

Being vulnerable not the time for you to go

Or maybe just perhaps I prefer to rip the gauze off

Instead of this long drawn out process that leaves loss

You have ghosted not free those actions have a cost

I don't blame you I blame myself it never stops

Call it weakness when tears are running down my face

No that's not weakness thats my emotions winning the race

Its hurting, its really hurting

The things that they told you, it was all a lie

Its hurting, its really hurting

The outcome of this you can't apologize

It might be permanent the issues are with trust

When love is so metallic it is subject prone to rust

The structure creaks and groans in the wind

I wish I could understand I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

Look into my eyes

you made promises

You never intended to keep

It's that deep it really is

I thought I knew you

I thought

just because you told me

But I'm a fool

So sorry

yes I'm a fool

I really don't know what else I can convey

I was holding onto something embarrassed now to say

Love, but love isn't real I think I know

Wait it is Im only tryna think so I can cope

With the fact that I'm all alone I'm never chosen

Looking in the mirror is always my lowest moment

Its like I paint a picture with no color

Feels like I think of you and I suffer

I really don't care if you end up with me

I really just want you to be happy if you see

I really just want you to know how much your worth

Even if I can't see my own value and it hurts

I should talk it out I'm skeptic if it can be fixed

Abandonment has followed me around like a mist

Freezing and chilling me to the bone

But I somehow still emanate some warmth

Its hurting, its really hurting

The things that they told you, it was all a lie

Its hurting, its really hurting

The outcome of this you can't apologize

It might be permanent the issues are with trust

When love is so metallic it is subject prone to rust

The structure creaks and groans in the wind

I wish I could understand I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

I wish I could begin

Hopeless

I am

Romantic

I bleed every word understand

You know this

Okay

Well why are you running

From me so far away

I'm hopeless

They say

But i don't really think

I am doomed to stay this way

Yes I do

Okay

My biggest fear dying alone

I'd rather burn than fade away

Hopeless

I am

Romantic

I bleed every word understand

You know this

Okay

Well why are you running

From me so far away

I'm hopeless

They say

But i don't really think

I am doomed to stay this way

Yes I do

Okay

My biggest fear dying alone

I'd rather burn than fade away

Hopeless

I am

Romantic

I bleed every word understand

You know this

Okay

Well why are you running

From me so far away

I'm hopeless

They say

But i don't really think

I am doomed to stay this way

Yes I do

Okay

My biggest fear dying alone

I'd rather burn than

Fade away